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Little rant
I think everyone in life needs a belief system, or something to believe in that will give you more of a purpose. I have more of a nihilistic approach to life sometimes because being bpd I often find life meaningless or do not understand what the point is to it, or if life really is just about reproducing more of us, why am I here there are billions of us on the planet. Sometimes I put myself as a victim and think it’s not fair. But other times I feel as if I’m on top of the world and think life is amazing, like how utterly amazing it is that we are all here on a floating rock in the sky, with just everything in the right place for our survival. And how beautiful everything is, like the sky, trees, the water, grass, etc. And then I go right back in the mindset of not understanding the point and thinking about how corrupt the world is, and how people are so miserable. We work jobs we hate, for money to put a roof over our head and a car to get to the job we hate. And yes there are some people who like there jobs but I have absolutely no idea what my purpose here is, or what I am super passionate about. I know a lot of people with bpd also struggle with there identify & I can definitely relate to that. I’ve never had a solid idea of who I am or what I should be doing in my life time. Or even what I like to do for that matter. #BPD #beliefsandspirituality #findingyourself
