findingyourself

I want to find out who I am. I want to figure out what things I love to do in terms of interests, passions, hobbies, so on.
I am struggling to find out what I want out of life. I graduated from college over a year ago and have been finding it hard to get a job. Dealing with grief and depression has made it hard for me to focus or stay strong.
I am thinking about traveling locally to hike/be in nature.
What are good/uplifting hobbies to try out?
I recently got into reading. I downloaded Goodreads and have been enjoying/appreciating books more. I also have been going to Barre a few times a week. I love it since it’s very motivating and no one’s judges you - there are people of all ages there. The instructors are encouraging and show alternative ways to do the work out if it is too much. They also let you take brakes whenever you want.
I want to find more things to do or ways to get the most out of life as possible!

I think everyone in life needs a belief system, or something to believe in that will give you more of a purpose. I have more of a nihilistic approach to life sometimes because being bpd I often find life meaningless or do not understand what the point is to it, or if life really is just about reproducing more of us, why am I here there are billions of us on the planet. Sometimes I put myself as a victim and think it’s not fair. But other times I feel as if I’m on top of the world and think life is amazing, like how utterly amazing it is that we are all here on a floating rock in the sky, with just everything in the right place for our survival. And how beautiful everything is, like the sky, trees, the water, grass, etc. And then I go right back in the mindset of not understanding the point and thinking about how corrupt the world is, and how people are so miserable. We work jobs we hate, for money to put a roof over our head and a car to get to the job we hate. And yes there are some people who like there jobs but I have absolutely no idea what my purpose here is, or what I am super passionate about. I know a lot of people with bpd also struggle with there identify & I can definitely relate to that. I’ve never had a solid idea of who I am or what I should be doing in my life time. Or even what I like to do for that matter. #BPD #beliefsandspirituality #findingyourself

I found home in you, and I know shouldn’t have been dependent on you, but everything about you resembled home. I felt safe when you were next to me, safe when you looked at me. The whole world stopped when we were together, and time seemed like a foreign concept. Your presence, your voice, the sound of your name ignited the brightest flame inside of me, illuminating my soul and exposing all 32 pearls. You were my home. You were my safety . You were my confidence that everything would be ok. Now you are gone and I’m so lost. My light left when you left. I question my own strength and ability to stand alone without you. I question my worth and my value. I can’t ... I can’t ....come back ....come back . I need you , but my need is a false desire. I don’t need you ... I need me. I need to survive..... I need to survive. I’m not searching for you I’m searching for me. I want to find the feeling of home on my own.
#MightyPoets #Thoughts #codependentpersonality #resilience #MentalHealth #home #Y  #BPD #Relationships #Findingstrength #findingyourself #Depression

Recently out of a 8 year relationship about 2 weeks ago. Some days I’m doing great and there are days like today where I’m really struggling. I’m struggling to find myself and enjoy being on my own. I turn 25 in a week and I feel like all these goals and plans of being married by 26 and having a baby by 26-27 aren’t going to happen now. I don’t know what I’m ready for. I don’t know how to meet people or trust people for that matter. I just feel like I’m stuck and I’m trying to find out who I am and I don’t know where to start. #help #Breakups #findingyourself

The hardest thing for me to do since my mom died was to be me. How is that possible you ask? Right before she passed away 13 years ago, I can out as a gay man. The crucial time of high school where i was figuring me out was crushed by her death. I had no identity but the boy who lost in mom in a car accident his family was in. I out a pause button on me. I did what i had to do. Finish high school, tried college, didn’t finish thanks depression, got a job. Just now 13 years later am i defining who i am again. Befor the death, i was creative. I now find great joy in music, books, theatre. All things to connect me to my mom, and who i truest am. It’s blips if moments. Like last night i saw The Lion King broadway touring production and now today I feel alive when a few days ago i didn’t from working.
I am pursuing who I am.
#Selflove #findingyourself #Livelaughlove #Depression #PTSD #Anxiety #Childhood #Creativesoul

tell me, how do you navigate a world in which you feel you have no space?
how do you breathe air that disagrees with your lungs?
how do you carve out a piece of paradise for yourself?
tell me, how do you live?

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#MightyPoets #Depression #MentalHealth #Identity #findingyourself