I wasn’t my best today; not by far
Other days I have my doubts about how much of my Best did I really Dedicate my day to; and something (an errand, a bill or someone (my kids in particular) always get the short end of the stick
Today there’s absolutely No doubt I skimmed through it..... absolutely none! Didn’t give enough of my best today to have anyone claim it myself included
Lack of sleep blah blah blah and so much more 😒
And so now I’m trying to identify my New triggers and learn new coping mechanisms because even the ones that
Work well and are effective seem to
Just run their course until they just don’t
Triggers are a given, even during #bpdrecovery you can also have new ones surface
But they aren’t really new, they’ve just been hiding until either you’re strong enough to sustain them or weak enough to allow
It to be what Breaks you
Apparently it’s my choice.
What a surprise!;
isn’t it always?
And so once again I’m choosing me
You know because, the selfish part is winning
Today I wasn’t my Best and it didn’t break me