bipolaranger

Hey all,

I've only recently started coming out of my first Manic episode (I'm 31yrs old) where rage was front and center. I was unpredictable, uncontrollable, uncontainable and my loved ones were often the target. Verbal abuse was my weapon and I attacked with a fury straight out of hell itself. Most of these anger episodes are a big blur to me, but my loved ones have helped me remember my behavior during my Mania.

I should note that I asked them to do this so that I could tell my psychiatrist. I want to try and understand what happened to me. I want to know what to look out for and learn ways to spot the boiling pot before it boils over.

What I clearly remember is the rage I felt. It was unlike anything I've ever experienced and it terrified me. I didn't know what was happening to me, but I couldn't stop it. I knew I was losing control during my anger episodes, I knew my grip was slipping, but knowing that only made my anger more hysterical and NOT knowing where it was coming from and what to do about it made it more chaotic.

I was put on an antipsychotic about 4 months ago and it really has been helpful keeping the fury at bay, but that still doesn't mean I don't want to know other ways of coping with it. I don't want to just depend on medication, I want to know I can depend on myself too.

Has anyone else diagnosed with Bipolar 1 (or bipolar 2) dealt with Bipolar Rage? I've read that "rage" isn't a symptom of Bipolar disorder but I call "bully" on that!

Anyone else's experiences or advice would be deeply appreciated and most welcomed 💚

Love,
-D

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So yesterday I let my temper get the best of me and I lashed out on my ex in front of my kids. He was mouthing me and I just let him have it with mean words and then he called me the c word and I drove off with my kids all erratic . I got calmed down when we got away from his house even though he was bombarding me with hateful texts. My kids were so upset. He said that he is going to take them away from me. Do you think my disorder will be a cause to have my kids taken away? I did tell at my daughter but she was disrespecting me.... I just don’t know what to do. I love my kids so much and wish their dad wasn’t such a jerk. #bipolaranger #Bipolar2Disorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder