I’m feeling extremely Hypomanic today. My mood has been extremely angry and I got into a fight the first thing after waking up, which escalated quickly right after.
I behaved irrationally though the conflict was about my caregiver’s mismanagement of the delivery of an adopted pet to our home. They refused to contact my other caregiver, made multiple excuses, gave false information, and went on to accuse me of wasting their time for having made the request.
This is despite having given them MULTIPLE reminders, with them agreeing to manage the delivery each time. They kept delaying the delivery, over and over and over again. They made countless excuses and would quote false information each time I spoke to them.
Their behavior was utterly irresponsible and it triggered me heavily. But, I responded with aggression, anger, and threats, and I became violent quickly, verbally and physically.
I recognise that I need to take medication and have since requested that Seroquel be purchased for my mood, as recommended by my psychiatrist for Hypomanic episodes.
However, I behaved terribly and couldn’t control myself during the argument. I escalated the conversation to an argument, a conflict, and then an abusive incident where I was the abuser. I recognise that my behavior was hurtful emotionally and physically, and that it is a long-standing problem as a person with anger management and aggression that is verbal, emotional and physical towards others.
I can’t take back what I did today and it isn’t what my values represent. It also doesn’t reflect my true self. But, I can choose to address it head on and I am, by requesting this medication and working to share what happened.
If you have an anger management problem, bipolar disorder, or aggression, I’m happy to discuss ways you’re moving forward from your incidents. I’m open to discussing coping strategies, treatment options, and ways to communicate which are non-aggressive and non-violent.
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