CopingWithLife

Im in a strange mood. I dont think its just Dewali..but what a beuatiful celebration & i got kinda introspective....and looked up and an hour is gone and my world is different.

Music is so personal and so powerful. As a teen I never owned cassettes or cds. I didn't want the people around me having insight into my soal. So what ever claic rock was playing.

The past year (mid 40's) my relationship with music has really changed.

I've realized just how much it can pull me out of a moment, or into one. Lets me create my reality for the moment. Give me respite or scream for me. Change my soal and make me completely present in the moment so all else fades away.

What music does that to/for you?

For me just a few off the top of my head that transport me Elsewhere

Lorde (esp Teams)
Shaed Trampoline
Alana Del Ray
Gorillaz (most anything)
Billie Eilish (most anything)
(Wish you were gay..feels like
my relationship "..I just want.
to make you feel OK..")
Macy Grey
Immagine Dragons
Borns (esp 10, 000 emerald pools)
U2 (anything)
Tom Petty (learning to fly esp)
Dead Can Dance
Liquid Bloom
Pink Floyd
Cake
Triand Drops of Jupiter

New genre
Low-fi
Psybient/psytrance
World beat
New School Alternative

And old
Clasic Rock
Alternative

There is so much more...

But i can't handle Undst-Undst base (disautonomia)
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I've started listening to Spottify which I love because it finds similar artists & genres i might be into. I might get myself a year subscription as a Dewali or Solstice gift.

#healingpowerofmusic
#DistractMe
#flipmymood
#Mindfulness
#CopingWithLife
#takingitonthechin
#masterthemoment

When you have unstable condition it looks strange from outside. Like at Saturday I've had fun, dancing, walking, enjoyed favourite foods.
Yesterday I've felt very anxious and had strong dizzyness.
Today I'm forced to stay in bed because of hard side effects from the new antidepressants. Din't feel the mouth and nauseous. And I feel guilty for the work I didn't finish on time.
So tomorrow, I'm going to stop this medicine and I'll feel much better. I'll finish all the work and maybe I'll celebrate the New year. But without ads I'll feel anxiously and overwhelming.
If you never experienced that just imagine that you want to cry and to crash all around and the same time and all the noise and the lights are making you crazy and extremely dizzy and the one thing you really want is to find yourself in bed in a dark room.
I'm a jeweller. So trembling hands can lead to some sad results.
So imagine how I feel when smb asks: "So you work part time, what do you do at the rest of the time? Why I don't see your own projects? "
I survive. I breath. I'm trying to accept this.
I'm going to leave the office soon FOREVER and it's the best decision of this year.

#Anxiety #dizzyness #Antidepressants #CopingWithLife #MyCondition #Anxietyanddepression #Disorder

For a few weeks I’ve been coming out of a yearlong severe depression. I’m grateful for this. But it feels like as I get better, people and life gets harder. Conflict, broken relationships, busyness, stress. Is this normal? Is it just that I’m noticing now? Is it my family “being themselves” because they don’t have to walk on eggshells? Is it me handling more because I can now? I realize these are all positive... I just wish the hysterical fits and suicidal thinking could go away for good. But I guess this is unrealistic. #CopingWithLife #CheckInWithMe #MajorDepressiveDisorder