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Reaching out #Depression #Anxiety #BPD #Borderline #Fatigue #Bipolar #MentalHealth #Support #checkin #Disorder

Hello, I'm seeking your support.

I was recently laid off from a job that I truly enjoyed. Over the past 10 years, I have grappled with depression and anxiety, and I have been taking medication for the past 4 years.

Losing my job has significantly exacerbated my feelings of depression and anxiety, to the point where most days, I struggle to get out of bed. I find myself spending the whole day eating, watching Netflix, and mindlessly scrolling through social media.

My job was a beacon of hope for me, especially after it took me 3 years to find a job following a 7-year tenure at my previous workplace. Now, I feel hopeless about finding another job. I am so drained and disheartened that I can't even muster the energy to work on my resume and start applying again. I keep asking myself, "What's the point?"

Especially considering that I'm a 38-year-old single woman, the thought of failing at everything and never achieving anything in life keeps taunting me. How can I start over at this age with nothing to build on?

In any case, I was hoping that you could provide me with some ideas and recommendations for sustainable morning and nighttime routines that could assist me during this challenging period.

Thank you very much 🤍

#52SmallThings #MightyTogether
#Trauma #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ADHD #CPTSD #Fibromyalgia
#ChronicFatigue #CheckInWithMe #Grief #ChronicDepression #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder

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Out of options & no support from family members

#ChronicIllness #AutismSpectrumDisorder #Stroke #Disorder #SpinalCordInjury #Undiagnosed #CognitiveDisorders Where to begin. I honestly feel like one of those people kicking a can down a lonely street. I saw the new primary & wouldn't you believe it he was "get him in get him out" mentality. He was pretty rude, didn't know what he was looking at,& told me it's transient. (yeah having steatorrhea with undue fatigue & urinary issues that lasted 18 months is a short term issue, you know what, there right I should just sit here & do nothing.) I've noticed a pattern male doctors have this pride of there's nothing wrong with you just sit there & though it out. Honestly that's what I want to do because no one else cares... Where as the females actually have a tendency to care. I don't know what it is I really don't. But with that aside, I'm done with doctors. There you happy now? I have a physical therapist who has here own attitude problem & is determined to not only get nosey with my doctors but diagnose an fnd issue. Well I have no choice but to agree with her. But, 18 months has done nothing to help the posture so there's that. Now, I'm doing a full vitamin panel against this doctors will (I'm just a burden.) I told him insurance would cover this test completely & that I had a chat with insurance & they said it's covered. Oh, I did complain about my problems porencephaly, laryngocele, spinal cervical degradation, mildly low Igm etc. She recommended a disability coordinator for this mess but now that I don't have a doctor anymore what can we do?

You know as a kid I always wanted to have friends so that I could learn to be normal...well I never got that opportunity, sad, but what can you do? I used to be envious of not getting a diagnosis so as to find my village. That has changed ever since the porencephaly diagnosis in December of last year. Now I don't care so much anymore. I'm uncertain if we will find an issue with my vitamins. I can't wait to come into physical therapy tomorrow & be told your doing this on purpose, knock it off! What a world we live in oh well. My life has gone up in flames because not only do I have to work on my own issues but I have to work on other peoples attitudes.

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I didn’t get lost this time🥲. #MentalHealth #Dyslexia #Disorder #Dyscalculia

My experience with my Uber driver was the smoothest I’ve ever had. I don’t drive due to my dyscalculia and amaxophobia (car phobia).

But, usually when I get an Uber I’m terribly nervous and afraid that the Uber driver may take the wrong turn and I’m embarrassingly confused. I always want to avoid getting an Uber.

But, when my designated driver is unavailable. I have to take the transportation that is literally at my fingertips.

So, today for the sake of my daughters needing to get to school since there’s a shortage of bus drivers I had to have them ubered to school. I’m already nervous about who will be driving us because the world can be a scary place.

The Uber driver was a male who ubered us in his pickup truck. I was nervous automatically because I am uncomfortable around most men due to my unfortunate childhood trauma.

But I read his reviews and he seemed to be an highly starred gentleman. Also on his profile bio he described himself as a “blessed parent” so that put me at ease a little.

He also tried to make small talk I guess to help me get more comfortable. Maybe he felt my tension. But, again it wasn’t just my PTSD trying to flare up. But I just didn’t want him to make any wrong turns either.

Thankfully he made it to my kids school so promptly without any confusions like some of the other Uber drivers I’ve had .

And when he took me home he missed zero turns. I was getting nervous because I am terrible with directions. But he wowed me.

This Uber driver is literally the first to get me to my destinations with any hiccups. It just made me feel so safe and happy.

I felt that I needed to share this story. A moment in my life where I finally was free from the burden of feeling lost and confused.
#PTSD #Anxiety #Amaxophobia #Disabled


Depressed & Negative Thoughts

Depression can be dangerous and life-threatning. Try to keep yourself away from drowning in it.

I thought I could over come the depression in my mind but it seems it never went away from me at all. I don't know how much more i can bear, how much I can live with it, but scares me a lot from inside. At times it starts to give a feeling that this is the end for you now. I am just 32, i don't know why I get these thoughts. I can't overcome the old mis-happenings from my mind. I'm unable to distract myself even if I don't it only happens for a few minutes and again starts to think of something or the other.

A couple of years back my parents were influenced by my elder brother and they asked me to leave the house. Since, childhood I have been bullied, ignored by all my family and he used to get all the pamper and everything was given to him. Since then, I have been just living alone even staying with the parents. I married to my girlfriend in 2016, things were quite fine in the initial days/months i would say but I think we are complete stranges at times.

I have fallen a lot but never stopped and tried to make me strong from outside because I don't want anyone to know how I feel from inside. Also, i have no one in my life who will understand my feelings. I have been like this negative since childhood. One day, my wife pointed fingure at me saying that I am the reason for her depression. This happened a couple of months ago but its still in my heart and doesn't go out. I mean I don't understand. When I am already pissed off from my life, now i made her life miserable.

Sometimes, I feel like divorce and leaving everything and go away from here. Somewhere very far and unknown place and start a new life maybe but there's something inside which keeps stopping me to act.

Things which I deserve, if I don't get them I get depressed. I am from India, I was given multiple opportunities to go to the UK, US, but I don't know if it's my bad luck or what. Something or the other happens or becomes big stone in my path which i couldn't control and I couldn't go. Now, I have plans to go to Singapore, but due to covid I am stuck from last almost 2 years now.

I don't know how much or till when I'll be able to handle such pressure on me.

#Depression #SuicidalThoughts #NegativeThoughts #Disorder #MentalHealth

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Selfie Sunday

My answers: Hot bath every evening, text my mom, there's a time for books and a time for movies, I believe in both, need to do both more but I do pray more than meditating.

#Selfcare #Depression #EndTheStigma #thisorthat #Anxiety #Parenting #Disability #meditate #Pray #mom #selfiesunday #ReactiveAttachmentDisorder #ConductDisorder #Disorder


I'm conflicted, please #help me out with this? #personality #Disorder or #psychotic #illness

So, recently I had an appointment with my new doctor who got rid of the potential diagnosis of #BPD on my file and said that it was more likely to be a #psychotic illness... BUT could he be wrong? My mum reckons that he's more experienced than the doctors I had before as he had to come out of retirement due to shortages and cuts. I would appreciate it if someone with with either of these diagnoses could message me x