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Since my last post almost a month ago to date it hasn’t gotten any easier on me. I have made many mistakes. Learned from every single one ☝️ Put my heart ❤️ out there multiple times to always or almost always resulted in a breakup or having me being ghosted and blocked without any explanation whatsoever. When this happened me being a sensitive person I always took it to heart especially for what they all said to me @ the time. I made to believe all of it was true. Dating in this day and age seems nearly impossible, people don’t always seem to stick around anymore. Just when I think things are going perfect the outcomes usually the worst. I’ve lost who I am as a person, everyone says that I should just stay single and to work on bettering myself and to make myself happy for ME and only ME. But, as much as I agree 💯 with my wonderful support system it just sucks being alone. I tend to notice myself getting jealous of seeing people in happy, healthy relationships. I know that’s not healthy. The jealousy...but that’s what I want. To be with someone who wants to be with me and for one who’s going to stick around, who’s going to mean every word they say, and when they say it I actually believe it truly, to not be lead on & to not get my feelings hurt. Reading what I just wrote now doesn’t seem to be a reality, well as of right now @ least.

But with that being said I do need to work on myself. I swear ever since COVID-19 happened I haven’t been the same, and I’m pretty sure the other people who read my post would/will agree. I am still without a job, like most people I’m sure, but I’m headed in the right direction. I’ve been applying for a whole ton of jobs. Recently had a job interview. Just going to stay hopeful and positive that things will workout for me and for the rest of us who are struggling everyday! ❤️✨ #Breakups #heartbreak #COVID19 #Depression #LosingMyself #dailybattle #pleasegetbetter