Depressedthoughts

I feel like a failure and not helpful or useful. Any advice would be appreciated

so I’m feeling lost without talking to him or being without him . I’m falling back to not having the energy or motivation for things. I see myself wanting to sleep more and more each chance I get. I’m not sure that I can continue this way , I feel like I’m slowly dying not having a grip of my own life at the moment. #depressed#Depressedthoughts

I'm really struggling at the moment. During the day I'm absolutely fine, but then in the night when I'm alone in bed I just breakdown and I can't stop myself from crying. Even getting out of bed is hard right now. I don't know how to stop this. It feels like it will never end.
#Crying #Depresssion #PerfectlyHiddenDepressedPerson #Depressedthoughts

Whenever I open up to someone about how depressed I am, they’re just like disappear and not talk to me again. I’m scared that my mom will not believe me with what I’m going through right now, she’s working abroad so I’m thinking if I’m going to tell her about it or just leave her alone from being stressed. #Depressedthoughts #AnxietyDisorders
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I’m scared I’ve wasted my life being anxious and depressed, I’m scared I’ll die and I’ll never have appreciated anything or had fun. I’m scared my kids will grow up hating me because I can’t even leave the fucking house without panicking, I can’t look in a mirror without breaking down, I can’t take them anywhere fun because I’m constantly poor or just too fucked up to leave and go outside.
I’m scared I’m not living life and it’s all going by so fast and there’s nothing I can do about it
#Depressedthoughts #depressed #helpme

The new heart broken post I think I really like this guy who and try to take it slow and I am his friend were slowly becoming good friends he is a girlfriend now he’s been seeing her for the past six days I can’t help but feel kind of sad but then I tell myself I’m just gonna wait to tell him that I like I’m gonna wait like a month or two so that I can make more sense of my feelings my Inner voice is telling me that this is a horrible idea. Should I wait? Should I forget about him? Because every single time I see his Facebook posts and he post pictures with his girlfriend it just slowly hurts on the inside and I feel like I want to cry I feel angry with myself but yet I also feel torn on the inside I want to friendship with them I mean that’s how most romantic relationships start right he also says that but he works in a different store now but he says that he’s going to come and visit me and possibly hug me but I’m afraid that if he does that then I’ll take it one step further and maybe kiss him and I don’t want to do that because then it’ll scare him and we won’t be friends anymore and all this and that even during this post that I making now I’m just crying I don’t want to feel like this I don’t wanna feel like I want to be with him to make myself happy I want to feel happy that he has a girlfriend and wish them a successful relationship that I have it’s hard to believe that for myself. #Heartbroken #Depressedthoughts #Depression #CheckInWithMe

I feel so lost and alone. I see/ talk to people around but it’s still like I’m invisible. They don’t see the way my voice shakes as I look away ashamed. They don’t notice that I’ve cried myself to sleep for almost the past week. They don’t know how I feel like everything’s my fault. I feel like the worlds against me... I get close to someone only to sabotage it.... Believing they think I’m doing all this shut for attention and bc “ I don’t have anything better to do” or maybe you think I do it because “it gives her a reason to give up on life” you don’t understand. It’s not easy for me. This battle I face everyday... I constantly think about how much easier your life would be with out me in it....