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    Going through a break up while also fighting depression

    Has got to be one of the WORST feelings of all time! I made the mistake many of us do, by molding my world around him as he stood at the center of it, so without him, I have nobody. I’m feeling all these annoying normal feelings of a breakup ON TOP of this stupid depression. I feel like any progress I made is gone and I’m back at square one. I don’t know how I will get through this. The pain is unbearable. I sincerely feel I don’t deserve this. I gave him everything I had to give. 6 years of on again off again, it’s like we always found our way back to each other. However now I’m wondering if it was all just a trauma bond. How do I get over this and move on when the stupid depression keeps me in bed?? I am soooo lost and depressed. 😭😭My soul feels shattered. I don’t know what to do, how to pick myself up or how to move on. It’s been him and only him for 6 years now… and after 3 months of being back together after breaking up for a year, he just decided to cut it off for good… I don’t understand. Nothing makes any sense right now. I’m just hurting so bad right now.
    #MajorDepressiveDisorder
    #Anxiety
    #Heartbroken
    #lost
    #BreakupsSuck
    #sad
    #ineedafriend
    #confused
    #hurt

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    Should people with mental illnesses date each other?

    I feel so misunderstood by the current boyfriend, not sure if he's acting like he can't hear me when I raise issues but it hurts feeling unheard by him and my Mother....

    #Bipolar1 #Anxiety #Heartbroken

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    Stonewalling Breakup

    I recently broke up with a man I was seeing for 7 months. Things were going very well. We had great times together. We made plans for the future. We are both divorced and want to settle down and have a blended family. He was/is going through money problems and I helped him a lot with the agreement that he will give back once things get settled. I got overwhelmed with his financial problems and it started to stress me out. On another note, whenever we have difficult conversations I notices he freezes up and pulls away. Whenever we have disagreements, he does the same. The time, he ignored talking to me about the problem for 5 days and was cold and distant and I felt so overwhelmed I could not take it anymore. I felt desperate to talk to make things right that I went to his home and he refused to talk and said he was busy. When I asked him if we were ok, he said let’s not talk now. But it has been 5 days already. I have a nervous break down. It reminded me of past feeling with my ex husband. I ended it with him there and then. He asked if I was sure, I said yes, and he said ok. I told him to settle what he owes me and other issues we that is left between us. He said for sure. I feel like an idiot for choosing the wrong person. I feel heartbroken because I really liked him dispite his flaws. I can stop thinking about him. I am so disappointed and feel disrespected the way he accepted the break up . I wish he was a man and did it himself. #breakup #Heartbroken

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    Today would have been my son's 31 first Birthday

    31 years ago at this moment I was in the birthing room getting ready to see my first baby. I can visualize every moment like it was yesterday. I wasn't supposed to be able to have children, the doctor had told me. Every child is a miracle but for me and my husband it was a miracle. We didn't know if we were having a baby boy or a baby girl so we had picked out the names for the baby that I dreamed of being a mom since I was a child. We chose the following names, Jacob Michael or Sarah Ann. At 2:08pm I gave birth to a 5.8oz baby boy! He was Full-term and I had gaind almost 40 lbs. He was so tiny that we had to buy premature baby clothes. Eventually he gained weight and grew into the extra large feet he was born with! 😄 I can't believe my baby is no longer here. It will be 3 years on Thanksgiving when he made the decision to end his life. I wish he knew he took a part of other's lives with him. I had decided that tonight I would go out and celebrate his life. Bought now I can barely breathe and want to hide in my bed from the world. I need lots of prayers and love right now. Happy birthday my "Honey Roasted Peanut" until we meet again remember I love you and miss you even when I'm asleep. #SuicideLossSurvivors #sucide #Heartbroken
    #prayers #ChildLoss #AfterSuicideLoss

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    you say I am

    How is it that I'm surrounded by family and lives one yet still feel so alone #Heartbroken #lovedbutfeelalone

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    Lost both of my best friends

    Boyfriend of 6 years left me for someone else and they are engaged 9 months later. And just had to put my dog to sleep about an hour ago. All I want is my ex to be here to comfort me, him and my dog were my two biggest comforts and now I’ve lost them both.
    I’m feeling so alone and heartbroken.
    #heartbreak #Loss #Heartbroken

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    It’s sad … #Sadness #Loneliness #Depression #Relationships #Heartbroken

    It’s so sad that you don’t talk to me
    It’s sad that you ignore me
    It’s sad to understand that you didn’t love me
    It’s sad that your pride and arrogance are above of everyone and everything
    Breaks my heart to think that you dont have a little bit of compassion for the relationship
    Hurts and hurts a lot
    It’s sad to be in bed crying for you
    It’s sad to see and realize that you never said I love you or I miss you
    Maybe i knew it, maybe my inner intuition was right and you didn’t reply my words because you didn’t feel anything.
    Simple as that
    Im not sure if im sad and scared of being lonely again or just sad because my love for you wasn’t enough.

    Not sure; but im heartbroken and im not sure if I can deal
    With this grief anymore.

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    💔 Does time really heal all? ❤️‍🩹

    On Tuesday, 22nd September 2015, my amazing mum “emigrated to Heaven”. 💔 They say that “time heals all wounds”, but I don’t think that grief is the kind of ‘wound’ that ever truly heals. 🤔😔 I didn’t just lose my mum the day that she died, I lost my best friend, my confidant, my biggest fan, and the first, and only, ‘influencer’ that I have ever known. She was such an inspiration, and not just to me, but to countless others too.
    Six years on, I know that she would want me to be happy. In fact, she specifically told me so – she had cancer; and so was prepared for “when the time comes”. As part of her ‘instructions before leaving Earth’, she told us that we could “be sad for a little while, but then we had to be happy and get on with life”. Six years on and the pain still hurts as much as it did the day that she died… Time has made it easier to deal with the fact that she isn’t with me in person, but that sting of death is still so, so, raw that sometimes, when I think of the future w no ithout my mum, the grief is so overwhelming that it feels like I literally can’t breathe. I want to “be happy” and to “get on with life”, just like she told me to. The problems are… will I ever get to follow my mum’s final wish? And, does time really heal everything? I wish I could answer those questions, but I don’t think those are questions that we truly ever find the answers 🤔❤️‍🩹
    #CheckInWithMe #MightyTogethe #Depression #Heartbroken #MentalHealth #Grief

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    I’m not ok

    I miscarried my baby at ten weeks. March 19. I was dealing with it medically for three months. July 9 I ended up in the E.R and passed the fetus…in other words I think my doctor was a shit doctor who didn’t want to deal with me. That’s a whole other story though.
    My heart, it hurts so fucking much. I’m suppose to be six months pregnant. But instead here I am listening to my best friend talk about her pregnancy and baby and act like my heart isn’t crushed. I have to act like everything is okay. Like I didn’t lose my baby. I have no one to talk to. I feel so alone. Like I deserve this. I didn’t deserve this baby and that’s why I lost it…I just want this pain to go away. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about my baby.

    #Miscarriage #Heartbroken #Depression

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    Letting go of someone who doesn’t want me…

    Currently going through the pain of trying to let go of someone who doesn’t want me, and I love and care for deeply. It’s been back and forth for over a year. He was hot and cold. Up and down. It was an emotional roller coaster. I am 100% certain this effected my mental health and made a bad situation worse. I spent most days of the last year crying, never knowing what version of him I was going to get. He always seemed to find fault with my good qualities, and was good, and then cold and aloof. None of this changed the fact that I was head over heels for him. He has made it clear by both his words and his actions that he does not feel the same way. I ignored a lot of red flags in the beginning, and of course am partially to blame. But right now I am HATING myself. I feel worthless and like no matter what I do, it’s not good enough. I hate everything about myself. I can’t seem to let him go and it’s tearing me up. And to make matters worse, I work with him. I have to see him all the time, so the typical cut off contact is impossible.
    I love so hard and have so much love to give and can never seem to find someone to love me in return. It is crushing my soul, and what ounce of self esteem I had left. I feel so unwanted and alone. The thought of waking up and going to work makes me sick. I am so heartbroken and alone
    #CheckInWithMe #Heartbroken #Sadness #Depression #Anxiety #helpme #help

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