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I just found the afsp today, idk what to do but thx for having https://me.please help me i can't take much more.im a single mom of 4 adult kids my youngest Gabriel is 18,been dealing with so many different mental isses for so long that hes probably got a mental health disorder that noone knows about completely yet cuz its no joke taking care of him and i have basically and the same issues, therapist told me i need to take a break cuz im literally at that breaking point, so i guess im broken now just saying, cuz i feel of of my mind,stress and worry about hom and too many other emotions. But i cant take a break cuz im the only one that knows how to react or address his behaviors,hes such an angel and loves me his siblings, his one friend and our cats but theres something that takes over all the time and hes a different person. Hes never been diagnosed with multiple personalities but theres something different about his mental illness, but id like to know someonego throughthis but i have noone,i have one friend i talk to once A month, i stay home almost 24 7,im on disability for mental health and to much physical stuff to explain, im 48 ive been seing psychiatrist since i was 16 i was depressed and anorexic, im struggling with binge eating now,not the anorexia, im a fat pig and i hate myself for being disgusting anyway can anyone relate, im all alone,idk how to help h im m or if professionals somewhere can help. I cant afford a good psychiatrist, he sees the mental health clinic, hes fell through the cracks. I love my baby he needs me ti help him sorry so long but theres to much to explain it,much love and light to you all thx #helpme

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Why are these stupid fleas still here?? Our cat has a flea collar on and it’s been 50-60 degrees. It’s cold on my room, and the one or two 70 degree days we’ve had in fall (that or because of the rain, a gnat comes out only in my room! Summer already sucked because of these stupid pests and it seriously drove me mad, and I just want them gone already! I’ve literally sprayed and have light traps and everything!

The worst part is that it’s just in my room, no one elses. Our cat barely has gone in my room, not even for that long. She hasn’t been in there since a month ago..

And we got her in 2019! I thought that fleas would’ve stopped appearing after the first infestation but apparently not! I don’t know what to do. Summer already drove me crazy and mad and so angry. I’m so sick of this, I just want it to stop already… /vneg

Any advice?

#helpme #Autism #anger #feelinghelpless #Idontknowwhattodo

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Sometimes.. this house makes me want to die. I just want to be away from it already. Even if it’s just my older sister disagreeing with my decisions regarding garbage bags… I’m only throwing the garbage out often to keep flies and gnats away. I’m only tying them to keep them away. And for my mental health. To this freaking day, she still has a problem with it, and it’s very annoying, and honestly - it hurts 😕

I’m so sick of being anxious over hearing her kids - um - “teasing” - and annoying each other.

Not to mention the fact that because of my mother’s anxiety about the Illinois bonding law (when in reality, me and my dad knew that it wasn’t going to be as bad as it seemed - psa: please do your own research and don’t listen to others), she may or may not get the liscence to get a gun a few months from now. She already took the legal classes. She may not even get the gun in the first place, but it still feels very icky and uncomfortable and I don’t want my friends or partners (plural) being here dealing with that shit.

Things would be so much better if we weren’t living here right now.

I just want to be out of here already… it’s been three freaking years since we’ve planned to move out… but I hope it’ll be faster, especially after Dad heard about what Mom was doing. He doesn’t feel safe with me regarding her decision, and neither do I.

#SuicidalIdeation #helpme #Stress #Anxiety #Autism #frustrated

I have bipolar affective disorder. I have been on medication for 8 years. But I'm not happy. I am worried about my future and many debts from the manic phase of the illness. I am asking for prayers. Thanks for every thought and prayer and space to talk. Thank you also for your experience, you are all everyday heroes. Thanks and I keep my fingers crossed for you, may you be successful and happy. #Bipolar #helpme #godisgoodallthetime

Last night I stayed up until 3 in the morning. I felt wired. Like I couldn’t stop. I tried to focus on things but I got bored easily. The internet hasn’t been of much help. I also feel that it’s interfering with the other disorders I have because I’ve been very agitated lately. What can I do? I’ve tried calming sounds, herbal teas and just plain trying to do nothing. Am I fighting it? What do you suggest?

#BipolarDisorder #Mania #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #AbuseSurvivors #helpme

In therapy I am learning coping skills but I wanted to ask the community if you know of any additional ones.

#PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarDisorder #copingskills #Abuse #AbuseSurvivors #helpme

Idk why but i can’t stop thinking about how much I want to be clean and stop using. But no matter what I feel like when it comes time to finally getting clean and quitting. I never can. A literal battle with a demon that is my own mind. And idk how to escape it or what to do. #helpme #idontwanttodothisanymore #juststop #whatswrongwithme

Hello as many of you know, I have bipolar type two disorder and PTSD. I gave the hardest time remembering to take my meds and if I do remember it’s hard for me to remember the exact same time each day. Does anyone have any suggestions?

Also, I just want to say that I am SO thankful for this community of support. We are the STRONG ones guys. Let’s continue to encourage each other. “This is a marathon and not a sprint!”

#BipolarDisorder #PTSD #ImListening #encouragement #CheerMeOn #Medication #helpme

Without going into too much (right now) the last 7-8 months have been extremely bad for my depression and anxiety. I am in the middle of very heavy grief due to losing my mother a little over a month ago….all of that aside, my depression and anxiety is at an all time high and I find it difficult to function. Period. All I want to do is sleep and eat (entirely too much and even when I’m full). I can’t work. One week I did not leave the house for 7 days. I am trying medications and everything…without making all of this too long…
Today after a stir up of anger/anxiety/sadness I suddenly had the urge to slam my head against a wall. I felt like I almost HAD to. So I banged my head quickly several times on a door. Not super hard, but I suppose hard enough. Then I paced and slammed my fist several times into the wall. (Wood paneling)…and than punched my fist into the top of the washing machine as it was closed.
This has never happened to me before. Where I felt such a need to physically do something like that before. I have someone else in the house so I couldn’t scream at the top of my lungs like I wanted to. But has anyone else ever felt these urges? Did it continue? What did you do to help this? I’m not sure how or what to think right now.. #Depression #Anxiety #Grief #Selfharm #banghead #helpme