depressionlies

Depression and anxiety. Looking into alternate therapies to meds. Walking is good medicine. Laughter is the best medicine. Just finished Jenny Lawson's latest and found it helpful. #depressionlies

I live alone. No one would care if I got sick except for people needing me to cover for them. If I got sick, I would have no one to take care of me. Half of the staff called out for tomorrow. They are not sick. I have been told that I will need to pitch in with the other departments cause they are all out and that it will be a "very busy day." So I guess I have to get my work AND their work done? Sure. Whatever. I have no one so I am worth less than you
#depressionsucks #depressionlies?

Feeling really low tonight. I feel alone even though I know I’m not. It’s just that every time I think things are getting back to normal, I slide back into this crappy mood and I can’t see the sun through the clouds. #Depression #Anxiety #anxietylies #depressionlies

Today has shaped up to be really horrible. got a migraine that’s been cooking for a few days, so woke up exhausted (again). had to deal with some insurance stuff that feels super catastrophic. short version is my ACA plan changed without me knowing and now it doesn’t even feel worth it to have insurance because everything is so expensive. I have #BipolarDisorder , #CPTSD , #Anxiety ,and #ChronicMigraines that don’t even fully respond to Botox. I blew up my life (very intentionally) in July, quitting the job/profession that was having a massively negative effect on my mental and physical helth, and moved back to my hometown. it was the right decision but I’m hitting so many unexpected road blocks: horrible depression, unlike anything I’ve had in a decade, getting diagnosed with CPTSD, not being able to apply for many jobs, not getting even a single interview for the ones I did apply for, etc etc etc. I’ve been feeling good the last two weeks, like I was getting back on my feet. and now today happens, and I see how precarious my equilibrium is. I’m feeling lots of despair. like it doesn’t matter how hard I try to do the right thing, even when it’s hard and scary, my life is never going to be easy and I’m never going to be happy. I know that #depressionlies and that this will pass, because it always does. but I could really use some support and encouragement from folks who get it. thanks in advance for using your precious spoons to encourage and support me, fellow #Spoonies ! even the act of typing this and knowing y’all are here is a comfort.

Without fail, Thanksgiving to New Years my depression rises as I dive deeper into its abyss. It no longer is the exception to my existence, but a rule. A fact that I have come to accept. Sometimes acceptance comes with resistance but I know that I am imperfectly me. Find the joy in the journey and progress among the pain. Because #depressionlies

Have defiant hope. Stop apologizing. Try & Fail. Fail then succeed. Love your flaws. Embrace your differences. Honor your soul. Know your worth. I am ok. Even if things are not ok. Remember who you are. It's ok to not be ok #depressionlies