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Its been awhile since I posted on here. I moved away from an abusive ex to a new start in Pennsylvania. Rocky start but life is way better now. I have a wonderful dr but as of today, they have really pissed me off. I have been having a fibromyalgia flare up for about 4 weeks now. I've never had one last this long and so I called them. They prescribed me prednisone for infammtion. Great cause that typically helps. Well this time it hasn't. I've already missed some work hours. I'm behind on bills because eof other things that had come up so im stressing out over that as well. This just through me over the top. I asked the receptionist if the nurse could order me something else for pain as I'm having to take one of my nightly muscle relaxers during the day to cope through work. They said they can't do anything until they see me and the earliest I can see someone would be Friday. She then had the nerve to tell me I can take over the counter pain medication. I'm sorry are you fucking kidding me?! If fibromyalgia could be helped eith ibuprofen my life wouldn't be so hard. But it doesn't do shit and the fact that they told me this made me so angry. I feel alone. I feel like no one cares. I'd like them to step in my shoes and have someone tell them you can take some ibuprofen for the severe pain you are in. I havent felt this way in a while and I feel completely defeated. I called a pain specialist in the area and they are able to squeeze me in tomorrow so at least there is some light at the end of the tunnel. However, I'm still worried they aren't going to do anything for me. I've seen pain specialists before and nothing has worked so far and i dont know what else i can do. Ive been using over the counter meds, my medical marijuana, hot showers, heating pads, pain cream. You name it ive done it and my pain still at a 7. #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #Defeated #stressed #Anxiety #keepgoing

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I was scrolling through Tumblr just a minute ago and the most amazing thing was in my feed. It talks about how Frodo (who gets a lot of hate for being “weak” and “always needing help/to be rescued “) is actually probably one of the strongest of them all. #keepgoing at.tumblr.com/freckles-and-books/701377839460679680/uurs5fwjk1nm

I have struggled with depression and anxiety for 20years. Tuesday is my birthday. I’ll be 44. I’m not looking forward to it at all and I love birthdays! I’m so blessed with 5 beautiful children, a gorgeous home that my husband built, I’ll be a grandma( he’ll call me Glammy) any day now 🥰 I am a yoga teacher and a CrossFit coach. And I am pretty much bed ridden.I have debilitating headaches, the dr found two tumors on the lining of my brain, hypothyroidism that wipes out my energy, my depression and anxiety meds aren’t doing there job, had a panic attack the other morning, had a hysterectomy that went south. I could probably go on, but I’m trying my hardest to not think of all the things I can’t do, but I can’t. I am at my lowest. I feel just lying and breathing is all I have. I feel worthless just lying in bed doing nothing. I just don’t want to be here. I’m in need of prayers, support, encouragement, something! I feel I can’t do this anymore! #keepgoing #cantdothis #cantbreath #AmIAlone