It's The Little Things #
Im really on edge. I've had so much happen to me health wise over the past 7 mos that my body is on hyper alert for another catastrophe to strike. Between breaking my kneecap and having kidney stones to having to have oral surgery to getting COVID, to migraines and dealing with occipital neuralgia, to discovering I'm going blind in my left eye, my normal attitude of handling bad things head on has dramatically changed. Wednesday i had some more dental work done and it threw me into a depression, wondering if I was ever going to break this cycle of health troubles. My daughter asked me to go over the other day to visit and told me the kids had been treated for lice last week. I panicked thinking I just couldn't handle it if I got lice on top of everything else! It's just lice and I acted like it was the end of the world! I'm a mass of anxiety! I wake up wondering what will befall me today. I'm going to use today to do some mindful exercises and maybe do some art if I can see, to relax a bit,baby myself. I hate this feeling of waiting for the next shoe to drop.