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A few days ago my computer keyboard stopped working. My parents and I went to BestBuy to find me a new computer. They understand how necessary it is to have distraction from my life-altering sanity shattering pain.
They paid for it with the Geek Squad also so that they can help if my computer breaks, since it usually does. The computer came to about $823. My blessed parents paid for it with a Merry Christmas thrown in. I sent my sister a Marco Polo about the incident since it was kind of hilarious to see the techs try to use the keyboard when it didn't work. Human nature and all that.
I woke up to Marco Polo's from her and my brother-in-law. My brother-in-law went to inform me that I needed to step up and return the computer because that was way too much money for a computer. Computers are a luxury he said. He told me I needed to stop spending money on frivolous things and give it to my parents like they deserve. He said I had it easy.

This month I'm going to make $15 from work. I barely have 600 in the bank from many years of scrupulous saving. My money goes towards personal hygiene, clothes, and the like because my parents I know are busy paying for medical bills. I have EBT so it pays for my food, most of it. My pain has been increasing for the past 12 years. 3 years in and I was bed bound. I've been working really hard to learn to push through it and mostly succeeded until these past few years when my pain came to a full level 10 and has not changed for the past 2 years.
My idiots has become severe and is the worst did any of the hospital workers have ever seen. My food doesn't go down and I constantly have to focus on not throwing up as well as breathing fire from acid reflux. My sleep is non-existent with even more pain, sleep medications never working, and of course the swallowing issues. Did I mention blisters on my scalp?

I responded to my brother-in-law by saying that I was really sad that he said that and wished that he could feel my pain for even a minute so he would not think that having a computer was a luxury. To which he responded by throwing a tantrum about how hard he works to pay my parents back for the things they do for him and my sister.
I called my mom sobbing. She calmed me and let me knew that they were not of the same mind as him and they live with me and see my suffering. It is so hard to have someone you call family to belittle 12 years of excruciating pain and call my trying to survive frivolous. I am an extremely forgivable person but this forgiveness is going to take awhile and he will have to work HARD to earn it. I'm just sorry my sister is in the middle of it.

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