SeperationAnxiety

Does anyone else have crying episodes? Anything big or small can set it off..sometimes it even happens with no known reason; it is annoying and exhausting. Wish I could go a whole day without crying at all.

Ex..the other day I had a crying episode simply because the cake I was eating was all gone. Then I cried even harder because I felt upset towards myself for wanting more.

#BodyDysmorphicDisorder
#ClinicalDepression
#CPTSD
#SocialAnxiety
#SeperationAnxiety
#PanicDisorder
#ADHD
#EatingDisorders
#SelfHarmRecovering
#SuicideSurvivor

If i talk about my mental issues or past expierences, the other person is nice and shows interest in being a suportive friend and of course I am just as kind and supportive in return. But when my face is seen...i am told that "you are too pretty to be feeling that way about yourself" along with "you're making things up and exaggerating situations for attention".

It hurts to not be taken seriously; I simply need help and am reaching out for it. Even back when I was in school, teachers have scolded me in front of the class saying that "you look too normal to be this stupid" and should "act normal and solve the questions as easily as everyone else" and to "stop making up stories for attention" so many others just assume that my life is easy and had it all handed to me because of how I look. But it is quite the opposite of what they think.

... even recently been accused by someone very close to me of faking a panic attack for attention..why would anyone want to fake something like that? I am not a twisted person feeding off of pity; I am broken real badly and am unable to heal on my own. I just want to heal from my past and be comfortable in my own in, does it really have to be this hard to be heard? I've tried everything I can on my own. It's impossible to heal alone.

Someone made a post asking if anyone who draws/paints their pain, if they can show it and describe the mood behind it. If any of you want to join in, then you can use this hashtag.
#painthroughart

Here is one of mine. I drew this picture in attempt of puting a visual on my mental pain/illnesses and as a slight view into my mind. I did it in attempt of finding my inner child and to work on healing.
I feel as if my mental pain and mental illnesses and mental issues are not a part of who i am..kind of like my mind has a mind of it's own, so i gave it a name.

This is Vhie. It has multiple personalities/emotions and multiple identities. It is naive, aggressive and immoral. It torments me continuously threwout the day. Everyday.

It knows everything about me and my past and it will do havoc at any cost to keep me screaming for a way out.

It harasses me with such brutal force to cause me severe mental pain and to the point where it causes physical pain as well..
No matter how much self love i give myself, Vhie is always louder. Vhie is too loud. I am terrified of Vhie. It shows no mercy, no compassion towards my inner self. It never stops being loud.

I would do almost anything to have even a few minutes of a silent mind. I want to be stronger than Vhie. But it has taken over many years ago. It refuses to let me go.

#ClinicalDepression
#SocialAnxiety
#SeperationAnxiety
#CPTSD
#EatingDisorders
#SuicideSurvivor
#Selfharm
#BodyDysmorphicDisorder
#Schizophernic ?Undiagnosed
#UnexplainedAutisticSymptoms ?