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So with no one knowing what was wrong they assumed he was lying so then they requested he be sent to the base in Atlanta Georgia for mental evaluation to see if he was lying. Left both kids this time with my grandmother and drove 4 hours just so they can show him ink blocks ask the same questions is different ways and a polygraph. He passed everything. So now they request he be sent to a Neurologist in Charleston at M.U.S.C which is 2 hours away. He goes through all the tests and to find out he has to have neck surgery and it’s bad. Weird that the VA didn’t see that🤷🏻‍♀️ so we make an emergency appointment and I take him of course the wait was sooooo long and I was in constant panic, worry and so much anxiety. After we get home and of course I have to care for him, as I should because I know he would do the same. Knowing he’s a grumpy patient I try and be positive, loving and understanding. Recovers and I go back to work so same routine Husband breakfast, kids school, then work, lunch break home to do homework and make lunch, back to work then home get them ready for game or either practice which last an hour or more then home again, dinner and kids washed and bedtime. Oh and let’s not forget now its my husbands turn for attention plus I’m still caring for him. In the mean time I apply for social security for him do all the footwork make sure every file is separated by body part and date. I make 3 copies one for social security one for me and one for his doctor. Finalizing came and he was denied. I appealed and got a social security lawyer which did nothing but show up to court. I did more research and connected all his injuries from other injuries he received while in Active duty. He won and was awarded back pay so now he gets social security disability and Medicare. Then I had to tackle VA to move his disability rating to 100%. I made them a packet as well and put In more claims he was approved for the 100% plus more pay, so now he has tricare for life and Medicare plus our 2 kids benefit because they get paid by social security as well. It was just a lot on my part because I had to do everything call doctors take forms for them to fill out get recommendation letters and fax everything. So in between doing all that I still had a household to run. I started to feel unappreciated and disrespected. My husband now can sit home and watch the kids and start doing something’s to help me out. Well, I eventually find that he’s on his computer most of the time talking to women and I still had to take the kids to school, work, lunch break equals homework plus lunch (which I never got to eat) back to work then home to make dinner, wash kids and put them to bed. So not to sound rude I asked if he could help with the homework and maybe dinner sometimes if you know I’m going to be late and I was told that’s my job. Literally I have came home to him saying he is starving and I’m like why didn’t you eat he says because I was waiting on you. ——> part3 #exhasted

In the past 30 days I've had 4 deaths in my family. The first death was my boyfriend grandmother who I loved very much, we stayed by her side for 4 days till she passed away, two weeks later my grandmother passed away I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to her before she passed, I beat myself up about that. My step fathers grandmother passed away a week after. This last Wednesday I lost my cousin to unknown reason she was 26yrs old, I grew up with her and felt in a way she was the closest person to a sister to me during that time. I don't know what to do honestly I'm so tired and i just started school in June and I feel I've just been punched over and over again #exhasted #Anxiety

I woke up utterly exhausted this morning. Can't raise your arms up exhausted. Dealing with a moody teenager and a husband on a deadline a day before a holiday. Send hacks. Send coffee. Send prayers. #senditall #ChronicIllness #MyelodysplasticSyndromesMDS #exhasted

Just got through my 2nd to last chemo this week and I swear this is the worst I've felt since the first time. Those of you who have been there or are there, this is normal, right? At least I can eat, my chemo doesn't make me nauseated. Encouragement welcome.

I have #BPD so I think in black & white; I feel in extremes. I have very few #Friends & I get lonely but I don’t want to open up to anyone new. It’s like I’m #exhasted from going through so many hurtful breakups I don’t have the energy to meet anyone new. I want to but I don’t want to. Anyone #relate

Work is getting harder and harder everyday. Im so tired for the arguing of the yelling of me feeling worthless and feeling like i cant do my job and that i cant do things wrong. I feel like shit and any little comment anyone gives me i fire up and get all defensive. I feel like i suck qt what i am doing and i dont wanna do anything but be alone and i cant i cant be alone i cant vent anf im just here taking of my mother when im at home if not im at work with my anciety through the roofs it just makes me so tired i just dont know anymore but i know im tired of having thing annoying mood changes and feelings #exhasted #Depression