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    I Had a Dream

    Last night, I dreamt that I was entered into an NCAA swim race against three other swimmers. Having broken both shoulders, I cannot swim freestyle (crawl) as the other three were, but was swimming the slower breaststroke. When I took second place, I was so happy I cried.

    I think this dream is very symbolic of taking pride and joy in what we are still able to do.

    #fractures #Exercise #Disability #adapting #Joy


    Anniversary reaction

    I’m having a hard day today: hurting, tired and blah. No apparent reason. Neither the weather nor my recent activities explain it. Then it dawned on me that this week is the anniversary of breaking both shoulders. The first six years ago and the second three years and one day later. Has anybody else experienced anniversary reactions? Any wisdom on how to deal with them? #ChronicPain #fractures #AnniversaryReaction

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    I'm having a serious flare up of pain it's so bad...

    I usually have my pain well managed but the nature of my injuries are complex. I fractured both my heel bones (bilateral calcaneal fractures) years ago. I'm able to walk and use special insoles for comfort and gait.

    guys I am so sore. I am not accustomed to this level of pain for this long and I have many areas of pain and discomfort with metal work etc. my spine and my thigh/pelvis.

    as you can see from the photo it's a neuropathic type pain that's why it is so red and localised to that part of the foot. it is agony and I've had the highest dose of morphine and I'm still suffering. can anyone off any comfort just now?

    thank you 🙏💜

    #ChronicPain #Orthopedic #fractures #morphine


    My Condition #Depression#Pain#Anxiety

    I was in a #CarAccident months ago and its turned my life upside down. I am 11 months into recovery and #struggling more in many ways then the initial #painful months.

    My ride-share driver had a seizure one morning on the way to work last March and my life hasn't been the same since. I was #hospitalized for 10 days in inpatient for 11 and have been recovering from home since then. I thought I would be so much further than I am now. It's soul crushing.

    I got out alive, barely with 8 #fractures including #surgeries in both of my legs. I was bed ridden for months. On a walker for months. And I still use a cane today. I also #Broke small back bones, my finger and 4 ribs. But whos counting right?

    I have moments of happiness that are surrounded with sadness.

    I am utterly disappointed in almost everyone around me.

    My husband, best friend and Mom have been there for me with open arms. 

    They are all that I have. 

    And my dog.

    I have the clarity to see the true character of the friends I have chosen.

    The results are sobering.

    I can no longer escape my pain with my old habits. 

    I can no longer resort to the things that defined me as me.

    I can no longer resort on the tools that relieved my stress my entire life. 

    Drinking, drugs, music, people all cause me pain. 

    I am at a loss.

    I am not happy with my support system today.

    I don’t even know what I truly expect from anyone.

    If they cared enough to join me in the world I am trapped in. 

    Because I am not able to join the world.

    I constantly feel alone. 

    I feel abandoned.

    I feel lost.

    When I try to reach out to those around me. 

    It just ends in a worse place than it started. 

    Because no one really understands. 

    No one cares enough to ask, or genuinely check in.

    I don't think I can ever forgive them or see them the same. 

    The groundhog day that I have been in for months on end. 

    I am consumed with so much sadness.

    I could break into tears at any moment.

    The only moment I get reprieve is when I have medication. 

    Enough to ease my pain, calm my mind and give my energy back.   

    But it turns on me. 

    For every day it gives me joy it gives me twice the pain. 

    I have realized how alone in the world I truly am. 

    Even tho I am just as alone as I was before. 

    For the first time in my life I needed help. 

    And even when I begged in tears for months on end it wasn’t enough. 

    I have become estranged from my family over the years. 

    And I am almost 40 with no children. 

    I am questioning what the rest of my life will look like. 

    I am afraid that it will feel as alone as the past 11 months have felt. 

    I am easily upset, an open wound, vulnerable and unlike myself. 

    I appear to be okay sometimes but I am not. 

    The quiet asks from you, are actually loud cries. 

    My career was taken from me. My health was taken from me. My energy was taken from me. 

    My freedom was taken from me. 

    My life perspective was taken from me. My happiness was taken from me. 

    And I can’t find my way back….