graduateschool

A month or so ago, I posted about how I was extremely anxious for graduate school. Unfortunately, that anxiety hasn’t disappeared and if anything, it’s gotten worse. I’m currently in the middle of my MSW program, and I want to drop out. I know it sounds insane, but I’m so overwhelmed with the classes and internship. Half of me says to not drop out, that I’ll regret it so much because I’ve already made it this far. The other half of me says to drop out because the stress is probably killing you.

I already have severe depression and anxiety, OCD, and an eating disorder. So, one can imagine how this past month has been a hot mess. Attacks almost every day. I’m too depressed to do the homework and have trouble finding the motivation. It’s driving me insane. And from an outside perspective, I know most people would assume dropping out is my best option but I hate how I worked SO hard to get here. I feel almost disappointed because I should be happier and more grateful I’m here at this point. But I’m just crying every night, drowning in work, and nervous during my internship.

I haven’t met with clients yet, but I already feel so dumb. I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing, no idea what’s going on during class or my internship, and no clue where to start. I just feel so sad and like I’m going through the motions. I want to drop out one day. I don’t want to the next. I’m anxious, burnt out, sad, and tired. I don’t know what to do anymore.

#Anxiety #Depression #OCD #graduateschool #ImposterSyndrome

My depression and anxiety has been at an all time high this past year. Lots of tears and missed days have occurred. What I would have yo say is the worst is the lies my brain loves to feed me.
"We have finals next week your seriously going to go into an episode now" (like its a choice)
"Everyone else is getting through this hard time why do you have to be so upset all the time"
"You should just quit, its not like its ever going to change"
"Your literally fine stop crying and study for your exam"
"People are going to get sick of you being all depressed and anxious all the time"

These are just a few from today, I see a therapist, I'm on medication I do the whole gamit of self help therapies. I guess I just needed a place to share, anyone else's brain tell them lies? #MajorDepressiveDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #graduateschool

hey there, I am looking to see if anyone with #MajorDepressiveDisorder and #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder have been through a #graduateschool masters program. I am currently in one and it seems like no matter how much mental/self care I do I still having these times where I just lose it. I meet with a therapist weekly, I am in a support group, I actively work with my psychiatrist but I still have week like today where I am barely functioning and still expected to keep up with the fast pace schooling. I feel like my life dream of being in this program is slipping through my fingers and I can't stop it. Did anyone else have this while in grad school? Do you have any suggestions on what you did to keep up with extreme stress and fast pace of the program?
Thank you in advance ❤

I’m a mental health therapist, and I have a disability. I work in the education system, and am working to bring attention to ableism within that system. I’m giving a presentation next week. Is there anything you would like teachers, professors, and/or others who work in academia to know? #Disability #MentalHealth #Ableism #School #iep #DisabilityTalk #College #HighSchool #ElementarySchool #graduateschool

Hey all, I’m currently finishing up my first semester as a PhD student and it has done a number on my mental health. My masters program was rough, but I loved it and grew so much. That has not been my experience with this new program. Has anyone left a PhD due to the affects on your mental health? How do you know when enough is enough? #help #graduateschool #Depression #Anxiety