HighsAndLows

Yesterday I started back to the office for the first time in person since March 2020. This is a summary of how it went.

*Yesterday*

Got my daughter off to school

Forgot to pack my own lunch

Intrusive thoughts and compulsions

First in person meeting since March 2020

First 30 minutes were okay, a bit of a novelty

Had a desire to run away numerous times

Moved between fear, anger and it is what it is minute by minute

Felt like I was shaking and overwhelmed most of the day

Kept a smile on my face

Made an appointment with my family doctor

*Today*

Hard to get up

Can’t concentrate

Feel completely overwhelmed

Not sure of the path forward

Intrusive thoughts are swirling

Aggravation level is low

Arms are sore

Tired

#Livingwithmentalillness #Invisable #OCD #BPD #HighsAndLows

My highs for the week: Getting discharged from the psych ward, getting my haircut, getting my eyebrows waxed, seeing my God Daughter, going hiking to a waterfall, taking awesome pictures.

My lows for the week: Moved into a residential program, didn’t sleep well, parents bickering, stressful financial stuff, Residental staff getting lost trying to pick me up from my friends

I am newly #Bipolar2 . I’m finding myself questioning my #goodmood on a daily basis. Is it real? Or is it #Hypomania ? How long will it last? Do I savor it or #medicate it? What’s the next #mood gonna be? I used to be so in tune with my moods back when I only had #Depression . Now? I just don’t know. #BipolarDisorder #MentalHealth #hypomanic #moodswings #EmotionalRollercoaster #HighsAndLows