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The mighty is our safe haven Its were we can feel safe be helped and help others
We can vent and ask questions. We need to protect the mighty from predators that think we are weak but we are strong
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So we can have our safe haven back
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It's almost 2 am and I am so wired, I have no clue what is going on in my brain. My thoughts are racing and I cant think straight. I feel like I can run a few miles right now. My heart is pounding. I just had a hypomanic episode that led to a real low depression. What the actual f***

My love,
My mental illnesseses cause me to struggle with my emotions inside, I mimic those around me. So when I say my love, I question.. are you my love? I think I love you.. but I never had a relationship that I let myself be so vulnerable in. I’m scared.. maybe to scared to allow myself to feel that. To keep that last wall up, just in case the other shoe drops. Because of my personality disorder I become those around me, and I can’t help to be a people pleaser. I love making others happy and I never really know what makes me happy. Am I happy? Some days are longer than others and I drag out of bed. The voices in my head are louder today and as I look in the mirror, I can’t quite tell if I am real? Who am I? I see all these versions but I can’t seem to tell who the real one is. So I continue with what an adult is suppose to do daily, or otherwise I am “lazy”, “no work ethic” or “wants everything handed to me”. People get hurt when I am not as talkative but if only you could hear all the voice in my head. Am I crazy? Should I be scared? What is wrong with me? Is this going to last forever? Depression sneaks in and don’t forget anxiety! So all this confusion, can I love correctly? Do I know how to love? Or will I always run from it because down deep i don’t think it is fair to make someone else live with this. I think of death often.. I think of self harm even more. I think I am happy but there is this weight in my chest and this voice that says “no your not”. So maybe by walking away.. is the real way to love you. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Psychosis #CPTSD #Anxiety #PanicDisorder #SocialAnxiety #Depression #SuicidalThoughts #Thoughts #brainhealth #meantalhealth