merrygoround

Hello,

I'm new here. Not sure what to expect...

All I know is that I'm not sure how to cope. I don't know how to get off this merry-go-round.

Unstable friendships anyone? I can't stand my own temper tantrums and I can't blame anyone else. I do own responsibility here, though. My proclivity towards pushing everybody away is getting old fast. I understand I leave so I don't get left. But is that really the best way to live? Sadly, there's no controlling this locomotive, that I know of.

I don't want to be this way anymore, but I'm not sure which coping strategies to use when it's actually happening. People get tired relatively quickly and I can't say that I blame them, I mean, what's the alternative? Putting up with my immaturity?

The sad part is that I have a thorough understanding of everything that's happening in real time intellectually. I just don't know how to stop the Hindenburg.

Which coping strategies work for you? How do you tame the beast within?

I sincerely wish all of you some form of relief.

Sincerely,

Lymphatic Lady

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Instability #merrygoround #Hindenburg #UnstableFriendships #UnstableRelationships #TemperTantrums

My life is like a never ending cycle of letdowns. First everything's ok, then things start to feel too usual. And before i know it a habit forms. 95% of the time it's a bad one. I've recently came to the conclusion that I have an addiction to addictions. Wether its weed, drinking, sleeping pills, pain pills, gambling, working, or masturbating... A few times I've miraculously managed to get out of the pit of whatever i was into at the time. But eventually I'm right back down in there DEEPER usually..
But I've reached a point where I feel like it's no hope for me.. Yes i may be ok for a short period of time but is it worth it if I'll just be deeper into the shit pit next time..
I don't even know why i made this profile.. #addictions #Sleep #tired #merrygoround #depressed #hopeless #confused #useless

Unstable Friendships Anyone?

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