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You can see it on her face as she focuses on the screen. You can read the disappointment in the pouting of her lips. Her friends, her people, her adored teacher, who last year made learning fun, are so so close. But they might as well be a million miles away from her. She begs me not to do Zoom meetings asking me “how long do I have to be in Zoom? I don’t want to mom,” before the class even starts. None of this my darling is how it should be. Learning should not take place in little confined boxes on a borrowed Chrome book. And I mourn with her this lost year, leaving space for her to feel. #onlineschool #School #COVID19 #childhoodmentalhealth #Sadness #lostyear

I am so tired of depression. I can’t differentiate it from myself on most things. I know that I am not depressed but I have depression. I do not define myself by my disagnoses , or trying to keep that mindset.

Sometimes, it’s hard. So much transitioning right now with starting college and trying to get a handle managing online school for and with my elementary kid; all the while, raising a toddler as my spouse works from home all but two days a week. Trying to find balance is not easy right now.

To top it all off, it’s effecting my libido and ability to enjoy relations with my spouse.

Depression enjoys my suffering too much. So, I combat with art which does help but trying to figure out what to do is a bit harder to be inspired.

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#Art #ArtTherapy #Depression #CollegeReEntry #onlineschool #Parenting #olderstudent