Scaredofmythoughts

Ugh I keep reading about #DBT groups and how they help so you can #learnt to live and #cope with your everyday battle of #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder . I've tried to attend group at least 3-4 times. But I eather am to scared to go in, or think everyone is watching me so I just get up and leaving and then avoid when someone calls to check on me. Don't know what it is I'm just #Weird I guess. My #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder alone drives me crazy. Any suggestions on what I can or should do so I can #learnToCope w/ my #illness like I know it's probably 99% #JustInMyHead . I'd do. Anything to have a normal life and have people to hang out with but it's Impossible #Hatemyself

#Anxiety
#Hypochondria
#Scaredofmythoughts

I sit here and wonder what I keep doing wrong. Why, when I lift someone up, they always let me down. Why, whenever it comes down to it, no one is ever really there when I need them. Maybe it is because I am not like most. Most of my experiences are contained in the four walls that traps me. Maybe it is because they don't want to hear the crippling truth that escapes my lips. Maybe it is because I have done something wrong, or maybe this was the plan in the first place. Maybe I was meant to always be left; to look from the inside and watch as everyone lived their lives and leave me behind. Maybe I'm not human, and all of them know that but me. #MentalHealth #DifferentlyAbled #lonelyandafraid #Anxiety