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    I feel weird...

    So, I have quite a few chronic health conditions, but the two that give me the most pain are Ehler's Danlos Syndrome and Interstitial Cystitis.

    As a result of this, I live in pain every day of my life. But I have good days and bad days. I have flares.

    Today, strangely, is a very good pain day. It's nowhere near as far as it usually is. If I were to put it on a scale with one being the lowest and ten being the absolute worst... I'd give it a 3. On the average day, I tend to be around 5 or 6. So being feeling like a 3 is... Weird.

    I'm so used to the level of pain I'm usually at. But today I feel so strange. It feels like something isn't quite right and it honestly makes me feel very nervous. And I have no idea why. I feel ridiculous.

    Does anyone else feel like this when their pain is better than usual? I feel like an idiot.

    #chronicillnesswarrior #ChronicPain #POTS #EDS #EhlersDanlos #posturalorthostatictachycardia #InterstitialCystitis #BladderPain #Jointpain #IBS #cramps #NAFLD #LiverDisease #Depression #Anxiety #BPD #Weird

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    Incarnation of Stupidity

    This is exactly how I feel lately. I feel like I know nothing. I don’t know how to eat, how to sleep, how to live. And I also don’t know how to write essays, how to speak with other people and how to discuss simple things. I don’t think the same way as people around me do. I am not smart. I know nothing. I am stupid. It is pretty hard to admit that.
    But so what. I can’t know everything, right? I can’t know even most of the existing knowledges, because there are so much to learn in planet Earth. I don’t have a wrong perspective, I have a different perspective. And it enriches the life around me (hopefully). This is the way of thinking, yes! I admit, that I know nothing and that knowledge sets me free.

    Apologies for all the nonsense, I just wanted to write down my weird thoughts somewhere else than my journal 😊 there’s a huge fight between rationality and absurdness happening inside me right now. That’s the 50 shades of depression. #Depression #lost #stupid #Weird

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    A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes

    Hello my friends. Yes... It is me again.

    Today i had quit my job that I was hired at about a week ago. I barely could make it through my day yesterday evening. It was quite awful because of the fact that I had stayed late, and did not get to go to sleep until closer to midnight. I struggled because I had to take #Medicine for my #Insomnia . I know how much I have been struggling for years with this disorder. The job started out kind of fun, but was lacking proper training. I realized that most employees were new, and kind of just thrown into the mix of store operations. One of the managers had a #personality clash with me. She came off very harsh, and snippy which made me so #nervous . I was #Crying about it, and could not seem to get myself out of that #worry .

    I read somewhere that those who have #BipolarDisorder also have a connection with #Insomnia . Some may have reason to believe that it has to deal with a wandering mind due to a hypomanic episode. Yet, I think they fail to understand that it is not always the reason why.

    I have a serious case of #DeathAnxiety that does not seem to go away. It has gotten better since my father had passed away, as I feel a little more comfortable with the facts that this happens to us all. However, I am still struggling. Each day that passes is another day completed of my life and I do not know when God will call me home. There is this weird feeling that I get in my chest that creates this #Weird thought process. I feel this hallowed out sensation in my chest, and I also experience a feeling like I need to whine or cry or yell "I do not want to die." Sometimes I call out for my #Dad who is no longer with me. Therefore, I noiced I have reached out to my #mom a whole lot. I #cherish the time that I have to live.

    If you have made it this far through this message, I thank you.
    I really would love a #reply .

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    Music is to much

    This is gonna sound weird, ever since my break down and stay in the hospital, I don’t like listening to music anymore and lately even podcasts aren’t holding my attention. Even being in the car having the radio on is uncomfortable.

    It’s so odd, it does bother me but only recently and honestly it only becomes a building panic in the car with others when I feel like I can’t ask to turn the radio down or even off.

    I know scent can bring back distinctive memories I’m starting to question if sound can also do that too.

    #rDisorder #Anxi #Depression #MajorDepression #Weird #MentalHealthAwareness #MentalHealth

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    What’s the strangest or most interesting thing one of your alter has done without your knowledge?

    So, I woke up this morning and saw that one of my alters (I suspect who it was, but I’m not sure) decided you rent “Hannibal” on YouTube. I went to my YouTube app to watch some videos and saw I was halfway through the video. 😂😂😂 My alters seem to come out more when I’m intoxicated (which I was after a couple of bourbon and Cokes 😂), or when I’m tired (which, I was, seeing as it was about 5am when I was trying to get some sleep). I never know what they’ll pull and it makes life a little more fun and interesting (when the alters are not being cruel and insulting). Looks like I’m starting my day with “Hannibal”. 😂😂😂 Anyone have any alters do something weird or crazy like that? #DID #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #Weird #Wacky #WhatWillTheyThinkOfNext ? #alters #Dissociating

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    FEEL

    I want to be left alone
    It's all I ask for to have peace of mind

    You've hurt me in so many ways than one

    Your questionable interference has ruind my social life beyond measure
    I lost all the people I could ever call friends

    You thought you helped me
    But you rather ruined me

    You weren't pleased with the already wrecked-havoc
    So you went the extra length

    You slowly but dutifully ruined my self confidence
    You filled my mind with worthlessness and self-doubt

    You reminded me constantly through your every action that I was never enough
    No matter how hard I tried to please you; I was still dimmed useless

    You deem me responsible for everything even when I'm faultless
    You don't trust me; you painted me a liar

    You made me feel guilty of offences I did not commit
    You vented your anger and frustration on me without cause

    You showed and told me to my face how much you hated me

    So much for the prayers
    So much for the money

    What more awaits me
    I, myself, am anxious to know

    You question my behavior and manner of communication
    Knowing full well that you are the reason behind it

    I'm now immune to your verbal abuse
    You've done enough damage than could ever have been done

    I hope that one day you derive maximum satisfaction
    But I promise I'll br far away from you

    #sad #aloneinthecrowd #Weird

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    being #Weird and loving it!!

    Idk why, but I like this picture, lol

    #funny

    #Anxiety

    #coping

    #CopingWithAnxiety

    #lonely

    #LGBTQ

    #LGBTQA

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    #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Addiction #ADHD #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Scaredofmythoughts #ParanoidPersonalityDisorder

    Ugh I keep reading about #DBT groups and how they help so you can #learnt to live and #cope with your everyday battle of #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder . I've tried to attend group at least 3-4 times. But I eather am to scared to go in, or think everyone is watching me so I just get up and leaving and then avoid when someone calls to check on me. Don't know what it is I'm just #Weird I guess. My #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder alone drives me crazy. Any suggestions on what I can or should do so I can #learnToCope w/ my #illness like I know it's probably 99% #JustInMyHead . I'd do. Anything to have a normal life and have people to hang out with but it's Impossible #Hatemyself

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    It's Weird Not to Be Weird

    This is so true! Heart this is you're proud to be weird #EmbraceTheWeird #Weird #Bipolar

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    Weird pride day

    Today March 4th is weird pride day. I've always been called weird but let me say if you are weird too weird cool and normal is https://boring.if people laugh at you cuz you're different you can laugh at them because they're all the damn thing
    #Weird

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