selfmutilation

I been self harming myself sense I was 5. A year ago I started a Christian DBT Counceling. It really has been changing my life. I used to cut almost weekly. But I have been clean now for over 6 months.
But the last few weeks have been been so hard to fight my addiction.
I don’t think I can fight much longer. Cutting is a release from all the pain in my life, and helps me feel in control of me.
Cutting is a way of being pain free for a little bit, but after awhile all the pain of life comes back and I feel even worse cause I harmed Gods temple. And I have to try to hide it cause it destroys my friends and family emotionally when they find out, and that kills me inside to hurt them.
PLEASE HELP!!!! I really think I am gonna relapse cause I really want that temporary peace. HELP #Selfharm #Cutting #selfmutilation #Addiction

My dad get drunk again.
I usually don't care about it, but this time, my FP was here, and saw everything, my dad was sleeping in the couch, the living room smelled like cigarettes and alcohol.

I was vulnerable.My FP saw me like that, i cat let him sees me like that.
I cut my leg 'whore' because i feel like i am a fucking whore, i feel like i deserve all the pain, and i blame my father, BUT HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE.

He doesn't even care. He doesn't ever apologize. He seems happy the next day.
I seem happy the next day, too.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #dadissues #Depression #selfmutilation

BURNING

HAIR PULLING

HAIR PLUCKING(EYEBROWS, EYELIDS, PUBES ETC)

BINGING

PURGING

RESTRICTING

AVOIDING

CUTICLE CHEWING

PICKING

ABRUPTLY STOPPING MEDICATION

CARVING

HEAD BANGING

PUNCHING

DRUGS

ALCOHOL

SLEEP

SEX

*this is not a complete list of behaviors.

COMMON EMOTIONS TRIGGERING SELF HARM

ANXIETY

GUILT

SHAME

ANGER

IRRITABLE

CONFLICTED

*this is not a complete list of emotions triggering self-harm.

*IF IT ISN’T EFFECTING YOUR DAY TO DAY SELF, THAN IT MAY NOT BE CONSIDERED SELF HARM. SELF HARM IS INTENTIONAL AND AT TIMES A COMPULSION.

#Selfharm #Cutting #selfmutilation #badhabbits #MentalHealth borderlinepersonalitydisorder #Depression
#Bipolar #Anxiety #rebel #EndTheStigma #mystoryisntoveryet #Suicide