I had an anxiety attack. I’m not sure if it’s true. I feel crazy.
My arm felt numb and hurt it radiated to my chest it felt like I couldn’t breathe I was dizzy held on to a counter. I started crying and looking at my coworkers looking at me cry made me embarrassed and cried even more. It lasted less than a minute but it felt like forever.
I finally decided to call my PCP for help, my appointment is Friday.
I feel like and have always felt like a big ball of stress. these episodes or attacks have been more frequent. I’ve had two at work (similar feelings) and one in the car driving home from work, this one was just uncontrollable crying and sobbing I just couldn’t stop. The three have been just this year. It’s a terrible feeling I don’t like it, I want to feel normal.
I had these feelings back in 2014 I went to see an urgent care doctor because I was having chest pain, the electrocardiogram was normal.
I vaguely remember having these feelings when I was a preteen/teen and it being dismissed as just being dramatic for not wanting to do chores. My mom eventually took me to a doctor in Mexico, I was sent to a cardiologist who did an echocardiogram. That was normal too.
I can’t help but to think that I’m causing my own symptoms if test are normal why do I cause myself to feel so terrible.
I want to go to close my eyes and take a couple deep breaths in and just with ease have a great night sleep. I want to wake up feeling refreshed and take on the day with out my shoulders feeling tense I want the pressure in my head to go away. Overthinking kills.
#Anxiety #overthinking #somatization #CheckInWithMe #rant