I was in the hospital for a week, but I believe it did more harm then good. I'm still not back to myself, whatever that is. Plan and day picked. I'm in the danger zone, but won't say a word again. The hospital stay did keep me alive but D-DAY hasn't arrived yet. Still trying to survive, but not sure why.
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I really need the mighty support people! One of my best friends shots and kills herself Saturday, and I've had a lot happen in the last 3 months, and only 1 response! That you all really cared! #hopelessness #suicidial #iwashere #Selfharm #idonotmatter don't worry about replying now. I'm not worth the time. Bye
Ithink I'm break down mentally. I'm ready to shut down and fold away deep down inside of myself. I'm alone and ready to quit. Totally lost. Bye everyone! I hope I haven't hurt anybody on the mighty! Much love to all of you.
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I guess people are tired of my negativity. Today, I'll just breathe. No cutting and I will try better to distract myself. I cut last night. I feel bad about and i don't remember doing it. I don't know how to stop dissociating. My D.I. D ccauses me to not know. Thats a good thing and a bad thing. Today I'll see my thearipist and figure out how to stay grpunded.
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So if uve ever heard Broken Seether and Evanscence. That song actually describes a lot about me. These last 6 months have been really, really HARD! Everyday I have to talk myself into getting up and going on with the day.. And there is days I dont want too, that i wish i could actually go through with the inevitable act of committing suicide. But when it comes down to it I never can finish. In the last 6 months I've had to go to court over my kids, my children's has started his bull shit psychoness again, my boyfriend and I are trying to work out this relationship idk if its gonna work, my ex is back and forth being nice to being a complete dick causing more chaos in my life, I am so insecure because I dont want to get my heart broke again or be hurt by anyone. I already hurt enough not being able to be around my kids 24/7.. But I dontknow how to be alone , and I'm kinda scared to be. Because I'm not sure what I will do being all by myself. I dont have really any friends because hell who is still really a true friend anymore. I hate hating life, we shouldnt have too, I dont have a job, a car, and where i live its atleast a 30 minute walk or longer to the closest business and it's like 90 degrees out till 9pm or later at night. So I cant really walk anywhere, trying to get a ride hell ud make it to the south pole before that ever happened. I dont know sometimes how much more I can take but it's something I am working on. #CheckInWithMe
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