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    Lucky me! I get propranolol, BuSpar, and Klonopin. I’m the most anxious person ever! #Anxiety #PTSD #PanicAttacks #Flashbacks

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    How do I clear my mind?

    I’m struggling with intrusive thoughts, #Flashbacks , #Anxiety , everything! I’m so overwhelmed! How do I make it all go away? #BipolarDisorder #PTSD #AnxietyAttacks #PanicAttacks #BipolarDepression

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    I just got over a week long #Migraine and now my #PTSD is acting up. I think I’m having #Flashbacks . I’d rather have the migraine.

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    Safety

    I am constantly processing how unsafe of a situation I was in. I didn’t fully realize it until recently.
    Now I’m dealing with the consequences with #Agoraphobia #PanicAttacks #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #ChronicMigraines #nausea #Flashbacks #IntrusiveThoughts
    And there is no safety net.
    Every time I hear the words “go to a shelter” I am immediately triggered. How does one stay in a shelter when they are so sick? I had an absolutely terror of a migraine because I couldnt get to my aimovig and I had to order a new one but first i needed an address to get it sent to.
    Not only was the pain off the charts for me, I couldn’t stop throwing up. But I couldn’t go to the ER because of the last experience I had when I was looking for safety from the relationship I was in and they called me paranoid and suicidal.
    I cannot manage my triggers. I cannot stop shaking. I’m rapidly alternating between hot and cold
    Also- for funsies my pharmacy doesn’t know when it’s going to get my #ADHD meds back in so I have a couple of pills to get me through… three days? If you have ever had the fun of trying to get a controlled substance switched to a different pharmacy during the holidays- you will recognize the impossibility of doing so.
    I’m tired of things being presented to me as options when they aren’t. It feels like these options are only illusions for healthy people to feel safe that if they got to this point, they’d get help.
    And I had a housing voucher- but the agency I was working with assigned to help me didn’t. And so now i have to go back on the waiting list while sitting in boiling water. Again. Like- it isn’t a slow simmer. It’s been a rapid boil for years now.
    Any proposed solution doesn’t take into account the myriad of obstacles that is my life.
    I am lacking most forms of personal/social support. No one in my life “gets it.”
    It feels like people are annoyed with me because there are no solutions. The number of people telling me “can’t you just work?” is astounding. Especially considering those people know my situation. They have seen how sick I get.
    It just all feels so unbearable and so inhumane.

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    How do you all do it.... Just need some reassurance to carry on.

    I am really struggling... This has been one of the hardest years in my life and as I think of 2023 I want to run away and end it... The symptoms of my cptsd peaked after being retraumatized by an involuntarly (and not necessary) hospitalization early in september. I have still not recovered from this experience. The dissociations, flashbacks, nightmares, anxiety and depression got really bad. I'm trying to hold myself together somehow but I am reaching my breakingpoint. Last month I catched Covid and needed to stay at the hospital for a few days because of my breathing and overal weakness. Being sick triggered my eating disorder and I lost some pounds. So another demon awakend... There are so many things I have to work it is hard to prioritize. With all the holidays coming up, I can't make an appointment with my therapist...

    The last two years I dedicated my whole life fulltime to heal from my mental illnesses including inpatient, intensive outpatient, specialists, different programs etc. I am determined to get better. Right now it feels hard to continue once again.

    How do you all do it? Any tipps of getting a little energy and stability back?

    #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #PTSD #Depression #ChronicDepression #Asthma #COVID19 #EatingDisorders #AnorexiaNervosa #Anxiety #Flashbacks #PanicAttacks #Nightmares

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    Do you have trouble sleeping due to flashbacks?

    * trigger warning*
    As a child I was molested by my best friend’s brother while he thought I was sleeping, it happened serveral nights. I laid there, frozen, not knowing what else to do. To this day I’m still unable to sleep unless my lower body is covered and against a wall and even then I toss and turn all night, scared, on high alert. I even have nightmares frequently where he takes it further. #PTSD #Flashbacks #Molested #Abuse #ChildAbuse #SexualAbuse

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    Honest and serious

    I havent posted something in a while. I dont want to bore you with my whole story. Just know, that I have a long road behind and that my recovery is taking long. I am making a lot of progress and I am thankful for it.

    But right now, life sucks. I am frustated, sad, angry, desprate, numb, aggitated and so on. I ve had suicidal thoughts before but I havent had them in a while. (Dont worry, I am in contact with my therapist and she knows how I am). I am really struggling with them these last couple of days and it doesnt seem to get better.

    I know how to manage my depression moods, my anxiety and my eating disorder and I am using those strategies. It just feels like they dont help as good as they did previously. And this sucks. Its tiring me out.

    I feel tired. I feel exhausted. I really want to get better and stay on the path of recovery. But right now every other way would be easier to go (dysfunctional behaviors).

    Maybe its part of recovery but I dont know how much more I can endure.
    #AnorexiaNervosa #Depression #RecurrentDepression #EatingDisorders #ChronicPain #PTSD #Anxiety #Flashbacks #EmotionalAbuse #PsychologicalAbuse

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    Childhood stolen. #csasurvivor #SexualAbuse #lostmemories #CPTSD #Flashbacks

    My sibling and I have been connecting more lately and it's been good and hard at the same time. We both have been experiencing flashbacks, dissociative episodes, and having memories return over the last 4 years. I started therapy with an amazing therapist recently and it's become increasingly clear that we were both abused by our biological father. We both have a lot of missing memories from age 5/6 through Middle/High School. They are coming back now a d it's scary. I just want to be free of the torment of never feeling safe in my own body and the thoughts that I must have deserved it. It's scary and so overwhelming to lose control of your body and mind out of survival. I am grateful my body protected me so I could be where I am today. The healing is painful though. We cut off contact with our biological family and are feeling safer now, but they still invade boundaries constantly. It's so overwhelming. I feel trapped and stuck around what is next.

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    Anyone here living with abusers and lack the motivation to leave because you're too traumatized and codependent?

    How do you manage?

    #Abuse #abusers #Trauma #Codependency #Suicide #Flashbacks #panic #help

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    When your loved one is also your trigger

    How does one explain to their boyfriend/husband that a trauma flashback isn't his fault? #PTSD #Trauma #Flashbacks

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