tearful

Just the mood of feeling sad, wanting to cry but not cryng. #Depression

I’m sat at a family wedding and one of my drunk cousins keeps on going on about how I should go and randomly dance with a guy. It’s not his thought he doesn’t know about my struggle with anxiety. #tearful #amxiety

I am so stinking mad right now.

Yesterday I reconnected with my older brother. It wasn't really anyone's fault, I had lost his info and he isn't good at keeping in touch. Last week I found his address on an old envelope, wrote him a letter and sent it off. He responded by both e-mailing and calling me! We had a great talk, and I wrote back to him via email. And I felt so happy!

Today, I am feeling on the verge of tears, and I'm not sure why. I told my boss I needed a day off from teleworking, and have mostly sat with the cats. Only thing I have really done all day is order groceries, mostly because the cats needed food.
I wonder if talking to my bro brought back memories of our family being all together. Our parents both passed away in the early 2000s. I am grieving now due to my friend's passing in April. And the world situation... Maybe it is all coming together to depress me? 🤷‍♀️ Plus I need to deal with bills. Sigh. Anyway, thank you for giving me a place to write down my thoughts.