Is it usual for some therapists (especially CBT with schema therapy approach) to not put a too high empathis on patients positive or negative feelings towards them? And what can a patient do, if they feel dismissed due to this? #CBT #Transference #Therapy #therapeuticrelationship
It used to be for fun that I use my psychiatrist photo as my phone’s wallpaper and joked with my friends that he is my latest crush because he is physically attractive to me. Yup this is slightly childish I know, pardon me, I have not been in a relationship before and I have comments from people saying that I am actually rather childish. But I realise I have been thinking about him, looking forward to see him and talk to him, of course those were my medical appointments. I actually feel sad at the thought that I am just his patient, and I feel upset at the thought that he has a life outside the clinic where he see me. Yes I know, I am judging myself as well for these thoughts. I googled and thought this sound like #Transference where many others experience with their therapist. For my case, the person is my psychiatrist. I feel like I should share this in the journal that he will be reading, maybe this might be helpful for my treatment. But at the same time, the thought of letting him know about this is like so scary. What if our sessions turn awkward? I’m afraid I will mess up the whole thing. Am I having some attachment issues? I feel like such a weirdo to discuss this. Should I let him know? I am slightly worried he would need to reveal this to others when he need to discuss my case with his team, like how others will view me...
#AnxietyDisorders #Psychiatrist #Transference #Attachments #Awkward #GAD
CANNOT come to therapy
The pain is immense
overwhelming, suffocating
cannot cycle anymore
thro
the
tiny
ticking
time
bomb
in
the
tiny
room
raw
..you walk with me to the Edge
then turn too soon away
not noticing I’ve fallen off
“it’s time now..” you say
“Just” feeling down or suicidal
every minute
every day
til another session
it really is NO WAY...
It’s meant to help
it’s meant to cure
I struggle to engage
you try so hard
it’s all my fault
your patience must be thin
am I now worse?
only resist
Glued to my curse..
Horror Image in my Head
that won’t go away
HAUNTED indelibly
every minute
every day
CANNOT press delete
Cannot swipe away
CUT it out from my past
Not Him - you leer away
hate it
not safe
refuse it
So NO
I WON’T stay
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