Hi, I'm new and I find peace of mind to be a rare commodity.
My brain has no "off" switch. It's always thinking 20 things at a time, strategizing, worrying, debating. Almost never do I find myself in a state of actual calm or peace. Either thinking 20 things in a day is keeping me functional or overwhelms me.
I have generalized anxiety disorder, depression, and insomnia. I also have struggled with sensory and memory issues, trichotillomania, psychosis, panic attacks, and PTSD. I'm also waiting on results for testing for another possible diagnosis.
I have fibromyalgia, chronic migraines, and chronic lower back pain. I also have photosensitivity, asthma, and joints that dislocate/subluxate. So when I'm thinking my 20 thoughts at once, it's also me trying to account for and take care of myself on a constant basis. I've learned to think those 20 thoughts because no one else will advocate for me, and when I don't it means I don't get the medical care I need.
However, part of the reason I joined The Mighty is because as my conditions have become more severe it's increasingly hard to see the road ahead. I can barely handle day-to-day, that merely thinking of making plans or the future sends me into a panic attack or deep depression. I've been struggling and so isolated that social skills which were once easy, are now a significant fear of mine. I struggle to string together thoughts, remember words, read facial expressions with those closest to me.
There is no cheesy pamphlet in the hallway for the struggles we go through. Questions about how to handle situations or how to plan a future that you want with the conditions you have. I found The Mighty because I am ready to move forward with my life to a place where I am happy, but doing that right now feels...incomprehensible. I'm here because even the small steps, I don't know how to do or even what they are. I can't find resources that even echo an understanding of my needs and how to accommodate for them.
I'm here because the best things I've learned are from my friends and people who have gone through similar experiences. Because the thoughts aren't so loud when they are shared with others.