Yesterday I got confronted that a bunch of the conflicts around me are caused by my deep hate towards myself. Or my avoidant behaviour, trust issues, etc... but But I can‘t even remember a time when I haven‘t hated myself. I mean, it‘s so natural and trivial for me. My therapist told me it‘s because I turn all my hate against myself. That I should learn to accept and love myself. I can‘t even imagine it!

How can someone love oneself? How could it work with so many regret and shame inside? How does one begin it? And what if then I‘ll feel negative towards my loved ones? I‘m terrified of it #hate #Selfhate #Fear #Love #HowTo #CheckInWithMe #confused #WantToChange #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #Anxiety #Whatsnormal #Trying