waves

I always feel these waves of sadness and I am just always confused and no one around me genuinely cares about me. I try to accept myself and stay with myself the whole time and not cry but after some long hours, I can’t sustain anymore because I get an actual chest pain, anxiety tummy ache, and I just need to cry. I don’t know where these waves of sadness come from. I don’t have any friends around me AND I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO BECAUSE I want to do social stuff sometimes and since I’m in the same environment with the people, I have to go to social gatherings with the people and it doesn’t mean they really care about me. I’m just here suffering. I am actually holding in for so long ( my chest is paining me and I am at the edge) I can’t really talk to anyone and if I even try, it seems they’re too busy and I can’t hold anyone down so I have to suck it up. After all no one put me in this condition except me .

It comes in waves, they say; today I am drowning, and there’s no one to save me.

When the #Pain seems #Overwhelming
And it’s all too much to take
When the #waves keep breaking over and over
Every moment you’re awake
It might be helpful to understand
The rhythmic nature of waves
When the swells just keep on rising
In the refuge of now flooded caves
You reach out but just can’t grasp it
The rope of #Hope appears lost
And the sodden clothes you keep wearing
Are so tidal that they’re home for moss.
But if you were to look from the sidelines
From the #Safety of the shore
That even the biggest waves have to break –
You’ve got about 90 seconds to #endure .
Whether it be the valley before the wave
And the distance from bottom to top
Or the view as you crest up the wall of the wave
And all you #anticipate is the drop.
Or the churning motion when you’re slammed down
Into nature’s washing machine
And tumble-dry is the only option
As your lungs burn and scream
It will subside, it will relent
You won’t forever be reeling
Take courage my friend, because after all
A #Feeling is just that – A FEELING!
So observe it and surf it, don’t make a home in it
Because it wouldn’t be very mature
To spend a lifetime living bad #feelings
That only take 90 seconds to #endure .

#Anxiety
#Depression