Adjustment Disorder

I’ve been doing EMDR to help me recover from complex PTSD for several months now. We’ve worked on two memories so far, only part way through the second one. Whenever I look up EMDR and fatigue the articles talk about being a little tired after your session or a little tired for a couple days. That is totally not my experience. I have had crushing fatigue for at least several days, sometimes the entire week between sessions. I’ve blocked off the day after EMDR. I’ve had to quit pottery even though I love it, because my fatigue is too bad. I have days of little to no spoons (spoon theory).

I have so many more memories that we will have to go into in the coming months. I have seen a bit of improvement in flashbacks related to the first memory and a reduction in dissociation. However, since I have flashbacks to all the trauma memories, everything is still really overwhelming.

Curious if any of you also have had more intense reactions to EMDR?

I’m sticking with it cuz I think it will help me heal. Super overwhelmed by the fatigue levels though while also trying to take care of my three young kids (one was just diagnosed with ADHD and an adjustment disorder), hold down my part time job and deal with flashbacks.
#ptsd #dissociation #complexptsd #emdr

I’ve been doing EMDR to help me recover from complex PTSD for several months now. We’ve worked on two memories so far, only part way through the second one. Whenever I look up EMDR and fatigue the articles talk about being a little tired after your session or a little tired for a couple days. That is totally not my experience. I have had crushing fatigue for at least several days, sometimes the entire week between sessions. I’ve blocked off the day after EMDR. I’ve had to quit pottery even though I love it, because my fatigue is too bad. I have days of little to no spoons (spoon theory).

I have so many more memories that we will have to go into in the coming months. I have seen a bit of improvement in flashbacks related to the first memory and a reduction in dissociation. However, since I have flashbacks to all the trauma memories, everything is still really overwhelming.

Curious if any of you also have had more intense reactions to EMDR?

I’m sticking with it cuz I think it will help me heal. Super overwhelmed by the fatigue levels though while also trying to take care of my three young kids (one was just diagnosed with ADHD and an adjustment disorder), hold down my part time job and deal with flashbacks.
#PTSD #dissociation #complexptsd #emdr

I’ve been doing EMDR to help me recover from complex PTSD for several months now. We’ve worked on two memories so far, only part way through the second one. Whenever I look up EMDR and fatigue the articles talk about being a little tired after your session or a little tired for a couple days. That is totally not my experience. I have had crushing fatigue for at least several days, sometimes the entire week between sessions. I’ve blocked off the day after EMDR. I’ve had to quit pottery even though I love it, because my fatigue is too bad. I have days of little to no spoons (spoon theory).

I have so many more memories that we will have to go into in the coming months. I have seen a bit of improvement in flashbacks related to the first memory and a reduction in dissociation. However, since I have flashbacks to all the trauma memories, everything is still really overwhelming.

Curious if any of you also have had more intense reactions to EMDR?

I’m sticking with it cuz I think it will help me heal. Super overwhelmed by the fatigue levels though while also trying to take care of my three young kids (one was just diagnosed with ADHD and an adjustment disorder), hold down my part time job and deal with flashbacks.
#PTSD #dissociation #complexptsd #emdr

I’ve been doing EMDR to help me recover from complex PTSD for several months now. We’ve worked on two memories so far, only part way through the second one. Whenever I look up EMDR and fatigue the articles talk about being a little tired after your session or a little tired for a couple days. That is totally not my experience. I have had crushing fatigue for at least several days, sometimes the entire week between sessions. I’ve blocked off the day after EMDR. I’ve had to quit pottery even though I love it, because my fatigue is too bad. I have days of little to no spoons (spoon theory).

I have so many more memories that we will have to go into in the coming months. I have seen a bit of improvement in flashbacks related to the first memory and a reduction in dissociation. However, since I have flashbacks to all the trauma memories, everything is still really overwhelming.

Curious if any of you also have had more intense reactions to EMDR?

I’m sticking with it cuz I think it will help me heal. Super overwhelmed by the fatigue levels though while also trying to take care of my three young kids (one was just diagnosed with ADHD and an adjustment disorder), hold down my part time job and deal with flashbacks.
#PTSD #dissociation #complexptsd #emdr
#Anxiety

I was recently in the ER and was diagnosed with an adjustment disorder due to coming out issues and sent home. Has anyone else had something like this? I’m seeing my therapist tomorrow so I will talk to her about it but I’m just a little shocked and sort of feel like a failure. #AdjustmentDisorder

I feel guilt, remorse, and shame for having sadistic delusions about my former bullies and I feel bad for wanting to be a mass shooter or a serial killer to murder or slaugter my former bullies, it was a delusional thing I made excuses about.

I have been to the ER and then psych hospital for only a day and I was diagnosed with mental health issue with no useful info, then I was diagnosed with Adjustment Disorder with other symptoms and I was assessed for Autism and got diagnosed with Autism Spectrum. My diagnosis of PDD-NOS (Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified) changed to Autism Spectrum.

I asked my nurse why I was being released so early as I still was mentally unstable and he explained to me that I behaved too well and that the outpatient treatment program is more appropriate for people like me.

I am sorry if I sounded a bit antisocial. I don't have empathy for people who made fun of me in the past, but I don't want to go to prison, so I learned to control my anger issues.

I feel so embarrassed

I was so angry that I had a delusional belief that murdering my former bullies was the answer. I also had a command hallucination telling me to murder my former bullies and I turned myself into a psychiatric facility.

I don't want the SWAT team coming to my house, I am trying my best to behave.

I have a Delusional Disorder, but I am legally sane and intelligent.

I feel so R-word, stupid, and delusional for what I thought. Due to the Autism Spectrum Disorder, I don't understand what porn is at all. There are some videos and pictures that I downloaded from ages 13-22 that are allowed on YouTube and in reality erotic and not porn. I feel bad and there is no excuse for the delusional belief I had. I hope that everything is okay on your side. I even thought that tango dance was porn...

I still feel very embarrassed about my anger issues in the past and talking about my dark and twisted fantasies about doing something terrible to people who made fun of me in the past. I also feel embarrassed about what I talked about in the past online, because there was police involvement as someone reported me to the police due to my past behavior online. I once had voices in my head telling me to do those things to people who made fun of me in the past and was in a psychiatric hospital to treat the voices in my head, but still, I feel ashamed of myself.

I know that this was two years ago, but every time I remember what I said online and even the voices that I had, I feel so embarrassed and ashamed of myself, I am sorry!

Although I had symptoms of Unspecified Personality Disorder symptoms with paranoid fantasies before Bipolar 1 Disorder, and although I have Autism Spectrum and it's a neurodevelopmental disorder, I would still get the death penalty if I acted on my paranoid fantasies as it's plans of class A felonies, and also because I am not intellectually disabled.

Although your brain is not that developed until age 25-26, it's a good idea to diagnose mental disorders at age 12-15 as soon it develops to improve the symptoms rather than just waiting for it to become worse until it turns into delusions and hallucinations. If Premorbid Personality Disorder is emerging in young adulthood before Schizophrenia Spectrum and Other Psychotic Disorders, it's best to diagnose it at age 18 if it is severe or age 23 if it is mild, so you can no longer meet the diagnostic criteria for mental disorder and get it treated as soon as possible.

Hi everyone,
I wrote about two weeks ago, but it seems as though my piece did not post. I did not receive a single reply, but I am in need of advice and reassurance.
The past five years have been extremely difficult for me. I have been diagnosed with many diagnoses. C-PTSD, OCD, depression, anxiety, panic, adjustment disorder, codependency, etc. that actually helped me to better understand myself, but it doesn’t make each day any easier.
On top of all that, I have been in a relationship with a man who had lived a double life, lied to me about everything, everytime I mentioned something was hurting me, he would do just that, back in October he gave me a severe concussion, that same day he did something I asked him not to instead of taking care of me. He blamed me for everything that he did, that his ex did. He painted me as a terrible person.
I know everything with him hasn’t felt right and this is where codependency has come into play. He is due to move out. I am terrified he is once again going to paint me as a terrible person. He has not seen his own children in 4 months and I fear he is going to move out and blame me for everything. I don’t want to be put through all that again.
I spent my life making a name for myself just for him to come into my life and destroy me. Rip everything from me. No self esteem. No self worth. Nothing. I had nothing! I don’t know how to move forward and not worry about what he may do.
I know I need to focus on me and my child. I know what should be but all my diagnoses prevent me from moving forward, letting go, accepting.
I am due to begin a new job in a couple weeks and I am stressed about how to handle the above situation on top of figuring out what to do with my child when I am at work. I am a single parent and have been since prior to the birth of my child.
I am stressed beyond belief. I am extremely anxious. I need help. I need support.
Please help. ❤️

I forgot to take my psych meds on Tuesday night and then all day Wednesday I was depressed and sad. But I took them last night and right now I feel better. I'm kinda stressed out about medical news but that's normal for me. I've got adjustment disorder. So I've got therapy at noon today. I've got lots to discuss with my therapist. It'll be a good session.

Update: therapy today went very well. We discussed the MRI and my opthalmologist appointment. I told him I took 3 bags of trash to the dumpster this week and I washed some dishes. He was very proud of me.

I felt insecure thinking about starting to post anything on this platform - which is probably a good reason to deliberately do so anyway.

I'm 24 and I'm here because mental health has always been an issue for me and also because I lost my dad to pancreatic cancer this year... It's comforting to read other people's experiences and to have a safe space where people are honest about their emotions and struggles.

#Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Grief #AdjustmentDisorder #PanicAttacks