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Hey everyone so I have been seeing this girl for past few days and I really like her and finally thought I had someone good but she has an eating disorder which still trying to recover from I guess along with medication she seems to close to OD a lot. Autism as well which at first al of these didn’t bother me I was fine we all have issues. But it’s to the point often she will be fainting because she doesn’t eat enough if she eats at all and will talk about OD or Purging like it’s no big deal and makes me feel I should do more and should be able to help but I don’t know what to do. We have been messing around with glow sticks which has been fun but she keeps biting them and ended up breaking them in her mouth and just makes me frustrated because having to suddenly try figure out what to do and it just makes me angry because she’s gonna make herself sick and at my house getting this glow stick liquid on my floor. Does it make me an asshole to not want this to go further? She’s staying at mine tonight because when I left the motel she’s staying at some guy damaged my car and she didn’t feel safe but this feels so exhausting to try keep myself abo I’ve water and be supportive to her. #Depression #aita #help #questions #relationship

Okay so I started seeing this chick I met through a friend which like most people my age it all happened because we were drunk. And we ended up seeing each other the next day and stuff and things seemed alright. She has a kid which didn’t bother me too much but I am someone who doesn’t like normality or schedules or same shit different day. I want to travel and before covid I was over in USA living my dream working for the boss mouse. Although a couple weeks ago I mentioned my friend moving to turkey and she said how “why would they leave NZ is the safest place” and I obviously didn’t like what she meant. We might be safe but I don’t want to stay forever. I said to her I don’t want a relationship with someone who doesn’t love travel or new things and then she got all upset and saying she really liked me and I made her happy. She doesn’t know anything about me and this has hardly been going very long and I felt pressured to keep going along for no reason. But I don’t see the e point in this. Am I a jerk for keeping it going even though I tried to stop it and didn’t work? I work with her best mate and last day that job is tomorrow and I’m friends with her too so I don’t want beef but I feel drained trying to keep this illusion of hers going but why keep trying this when some point I’m just gonna be like “cool bye I’m leaving for good” am I in the wrong for letting this happen? I don’t know what to do. #COVID #Travel #relationship #aita #confused #Guilt #BPD #Anxiety #NewZealand

I seem to be lost at the moment. I need to either be told "Youre right" or "no, girl, youre wrong!" So here we go- my SO and i have separated and are trying to work on things. However we just seem to be arguing still like before. Now this recent one- I'm not doing too well I'll admit. my health seems shaky and I will be undergoing surgery soon. And with all the stress of the holidays I am overwhelmed.. Now, emotionally I feel I've been carrying things well but they just get so darn heavy sometimes- and well yesterday i had a panic attack while driving in the dark and had to pull over- that was all it took for tears to stream down and everything to be too much and flood me at once. Now my SO has been upset with me because of a different situation and wasnt talking to me really at all yesterday until he saw my post about said panic attack. He called and i was still overwhelmed and didnt want to discuss at that moment and especially not when he was around others because last time he told me i was "embarrassing him".. he messaged me and was asking questions so i finally started to vent and he told me to rest... Yeah, to rest. I was in full meltdown and i felt like he was dismissing me by telling me to rest, then followed it with "no really get some sleep".. like i was just a burden he was trying to escape. then when i proceeded to say how i felt and even laughed ("ha") because he said that - he said "idk why i bother when i end up being treated like this". in my eyes all i did was explain what was going on, then felt dismissed and unimportant. all to which i got that comment so i was like what? okay, fine, you win..and then was yet again accused of making excuses for myself and everything when i was just explaining my side and how i saw things.. so,# I dont see how i treated him badly when i was melting and finally opened up just to be told to rest... AITA? Like did i really mistreat him?

#help #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #aita #Advice #borderlineandrelationships #bpdandlove #Relationships

So unless you live under a rock you have probably heard of the reddit thread #aita (Am I the @$$hole?) if you aren't familiar it allows people to post a situation and their reaction/feelings anonymously and get feedback as to whether or not they are being an @$$hole. It felt appropriate for some thoughts I've been having the last couple of days. However, I don't post on reddit and I wouldn't want to have to write a report on EDS to educate my audience.

WARNING: THE POSTS/POSTERS I MENTION ARE NOT A SPECIFIC PERSON ON THIS SITE OR ANY OTHER. I'm not trying to hurt anyone's feelings I just need to vent. I know the struggle of knowing something is wrong and not having a diagnosis. I know that many of us in the#EhlersDanlosSyndrome community have a variety of co-morbidities and many of us are in pain every single day. This isn't to cause drama but just for me to express my frustration.

For perspective, I am a suspicious person by nature, it's a character flaw, I'm working on it. However, I tend to be more skeptical/pragmatic/logical than others. I wish it was easy for me to trust. I've just been burned so many times that now I'm cautious (overly cautious if I'm being honest with myself). I know that has influenced my feelings on the subject below and I work very hard to keep myself in check. Even if I believe someone is being less than honest I keep my thoughts to myself unless I view the poster or audience as being put in harms way because of misinformation.

So the question is "Am I the @$$hole for being incredibly frustrated with online support communities?"

I see the irony that I am posting this question on a site that falls into the category that frustrates me. But this community is the best I have come across so far, some of you share inspiration daily (looking at you @tierradrollinger23) some of you share your wealth of experience and knowledge and overall this feels like a safe place to ask questions and has the least amount of "noise" which I will define below.

The noise brings me down, makes me tired, makes me question my own experience, leaves me feeling frustrated and sometimes angry. Some days it makes me feel a little hopeless, a little broken.

There are several types of noise. What I find to be the most draining is what I call the self-diagnosed tourist noise. AGAIN I'm NOT doubting anyone's experience, just expressing frustration (and suspicion if I'm being brutally honest). This person has come across and ailment like EDS and diagnosed themselves with this condition, but when they post about their experience it is very clear they don't have an understanding of the condition. It feels like they discovered EDS and have some of the non-specific symptoms and have decided this is what they have, and they put all of their symptoms into that bucket.

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