Back Pain

So far, I have collected the following that apply to me... (Ridiculous, I know)
#52SmallThings
#Abuse
#Addiction
#AddictionRecovery
#ADHD
#AlcoholDependence
#AlcoholUseDisorder
#Anxiety
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#weed

So today started shitty with intense back pain. I was depressed and my lumbar felt like I got kicked. So I ate one of my THC gummies...10mg of the good stuff and 100mg CBD. Within 35 minutes I felt amazing. No pain and I feel euphoric!
Then I said to myself "self... We need coffee" so I made hazelnut creme flavor coffee. I'm a very happy puppy.
I'm disappointed about not going out. We probably could have gone out for dinner but she's out cold asleep.
I wish I had more friends.

The gummy wore off and now I'm experiencing some very sharp stabby back pain. I just wanted to feel better. Now I feel worse.