Back Pain

Yes I understand we have fruit flies. No I don't know where they're coming from. But fruit flies aren't the end of the world. It's not reason for stopping normal cleaning and taking care of me. This is what you want to get paid for so fucking do it and quit bitching. I'm trying to help but my pain is still so high and I can't stand for more than 10 minutes. I shouldn't be doing your chores. I'm paying for rent, electric, wifi, and half of the food. She has food stamps but when I asked her to please order groceries 5 days ago she was like I don't have enough money. I knew she had about 85 bucks but I didn't speak up.
When she moved in with me I told her she needs to pay 250 per month and she's gotta do dishes and clean. She hasn't had any money and I've paid for everything. And when we go to Canterbury village I'm the one paying. I have limited funds.
I'm so tired of being an adult human. I think today is a good day for puppy time. If you leave me biscuits and head scritches I'd be very happy.
#ChronicPain #BackPain #Bursitis #FemoralAcetabularImpingement

I restarted grad school for the nth time! I put support in place with my Fibro, FND, anxiety and depression etc. But my body and mind are still going ape sh#% 🙄

It's like my body is settling...Very, very slowly, but my course is sooo fast paced that you need to be on it from the jump.

I just don't know what to do anymore 😞 I actually am enjoying what I'm learning this time, but don't have the energy or decent enough health to manage studying it effectively.

We're only in week 2/3 and I am sooo behind, have only attended ONE class and we have mocks in a couple of weeks 🫠

I just feel like a failure. Like I'm letting down everyone supporting me, while also letting life pass me by.

#Fibromyalgia #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder #MentalHealth #Insomnia #Anxiety #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #ChronicFatigue #ChronicIllness #BackPain #DepressiveDisorders #ChronicPain #Psoriasis

Woke up with my hips hurting. So about 45 minutes ago I ate a gummy. My hips feel better but my right leg is very ouchy. I'm fairly certain it's sciatica. I just gotta relax and let the gummy to work it's magic...
I found 2 musicians yesterday that I adore. I found both on FB reels. One is named Spencer Sutherland. He's a modern 70s slice of awesome pie. And then there's Marcin. He's a Polish guitarist. His music is just amazing. I highly recommend both.
would anyone like to share music with me?
#BackPain #Music

I woke up a half hour ago. I felt mostly ok but when I walked to the bathroom my knees started hurting. And I felt like my brain was wrapped in bubble wrap. So I took a gummy 5 minutes ago. I should feel great in a half hour.
My dreams are very vivid. I've been enjoying them like indie films.
#BackPain #Migraine #naturalmedicine

This morning was really rough with waking up to a ginormous patch of ringworm. I waited for Pauley to wake up so she could put some medicine on the wound. It was bleeding a little bit this morning.
I took one gummy at 9am and another around 1pm. I have no pain. I haven't taken any of my pain meds today! I don't have a migraine either!
I ordered another jar of the gummies using a different email address cuz otherwise it was gonna be suuuuuuuuuper expensive. I also ordered a dropper bottle of CBD/CBG tincture. And I'm pretty sure I ordered another thing of samples of gummies. I'm quite serious about finding different ways to stop my pain.
The second gummy today was taken with hydroxyzine just so I could meditate deeply. Except I fell asleep and had some awesome dreams.
Something I expected was feeling high which I hate. I don't feel high. I feel like I could hug the whole world.
Of course now I've got a serious case of the munchies. I'll have some pizza for dinner tonight. But I'm really craving shawarma and falafel and poutine.
Emotionally I feel great. I'm alert, focused, and happy. This Feels amazing.
#Alternativemedicine #FemoralAcetabularImpingement #Bursitis #Osteoarthritis #BackPain #sciatica #Migraine

So the meds kinda work sometimes which absolutely sucks. And the CBD cream I have takes the edge off the pain but a 6 is still a 6. I remember from about 14 years ago I tried THC gummies and they knocked me on my ass. Then I tried CBD gummies and I was taking them because of severe insomnia. I slept sooooooo good with those goofy peach rings. So I figured I'd try to find a gummy for stress and anxiety relief. I found a company that has a "free jar, just pay shipping" and they retail for 70 bucks! I ordered a jar about 5 days ago so there's quick turnaround.
Guess what arrived today!!!
I was so excited. i opened the box and took out the gummies. I opened the jar and sniffed but it was... Chemically. I knew these wouldn't taste good but they smelled like serious business. So at 330pm I ate 2 gummies. An hour later my mind was calm.
2 hours later I noticed that I didn't have any pain.
Wait... What?!?! How the what the what???
Yeah. No migraine. Back felt great. Hips were a little stiff but they didn't hurt at all. And I had gotten sick 4x this morning right before I got them... And after eating the gummies, my tummy felt wonderful. I have chronic GI disease and I'm usually complaining about my tummy hurting.
I told Pauley about how good I feel and she was shocked. The pain started coming back about an hour ago. So 330pm till 10pm. That's definitely a change of pace. I just took half of a gummy to help me rest better. I'm curious about what kind of dreams I'll have tonight.
#ChronicPain #BackPain #FemoralAcetabularImpingement #Bursitis #Osteoarthritis #Migraine #CBD