This is what I’m doing right now to keep the thoughts from completely overwhelming me. I am so desperately depressed today, I feel ignored, alone, afraid. I hope I can make it through the next few hours. 😢😢😢 #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #Fibromyalgia #Selfharm #Suicide #SuicidalIdeation #behaviors
i don’t get it. All these conflicts where when I finally get the info from someone that I need to function and be effective in a relationship or group, my question is always, why didn’t you tell me? People talk behind my back and seem to avoid telling me things that would indicate a change needed to be made by me.
My psychiatrist did not tell me my bpd diagnosis for 5 years! Until I discovered the Quiet Borderline after years of research!
Why doesn’t anyone just tell me what I need to know before it’s too late and I’ve upset people. Feel like an outcast.
I've had three serious relationships in my life, all of which ended due to my own #behaviors of #insecurity , #isolating ,#exhaustion , that stem from my illness. I also do not #trustmyself to recognize a #goodpartner who will be kind and supportive. My #pastpartners ranged between #cool and #unsupportive to #verballyabusive . I was always drawn to partners with whom I felt like I needed to explain, justify or #improvemyself . I would really like to share my life with someone but feel #paralyzedwithfear of making another #badchoice so have lived #safelyalone for several years now.
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