always

#Anxiety My anxiety wears me out! Every day, my goals remain out of reach because of my overwhelming exhaustion. I want to start a freelance writing business. Just thinking about my future and what I need to accomplish to be successful drains me until I can’t accomplish anything. My thoughts hinder me but the tiredness does me in.

#what is a friend? #My definition. Someone that accepts you as you are. Someone that listens to you when you talk. #Not JUST GOSSIP. Someone that is there for you if they are able. #Someone you trust. Someone that doesn't try to change you. #Someone that doesn't get mad because you don't share the same interests. I try to be this person. Why is it so hard to find the same? With depression, anxiety and PTSD things are hard for me mentally. #Understanding helps. #Acceptance as is helps. #negativity doesn't help. #always complaining doesn't help. #Accepting flaws and differences without anger helps. We all suffer from SOMETHING, you can't expect people to do things at your pace. You can't think your way of life is THE WAY and people should be like you. #passive /aggressive behavior is hurtful too. #Rather be alone.

Family # will always be there for you.
Always. Period. End of discussion.
Even if they aren’t related by blood.
If someone is not blood-related,
But they are always there for you.
They are your family.
Likewise,
If someone is blood-related
But they are not always there for you
They are not your family.
Every single person in your life has a phone
It is not that hard to send a text
It is not that hard to call and check in on someone.
Every single person has access to a mailbox.
Every single person that cares about you,
Could spare five minutes out of their week
And write you a letter just to check-in.
If they care, they will make time to show it.
Blood may be thicker than water
But blood can also be acidic.
Know your worth.

Can someone call me on the phone pls... I'm lonely. Im sick and tired of being ignored by everyone everyday of my life because now i think I am created to alone. My feelings don't matter to anyone, I'm not important to anyone. I don't have any real friends and everyone is better without me.. my parents never loved me.. they lie too much in my face... and they abuse me.. i go to school seeing that everyone has their pathetic smiles and im the only one through this .. since no one gives a damn i migjt as well disappear mysteriously

And no one will notice I'm gone

#Loneliness #suicidal thoughts #always alone 24/7

I have lived in quarantine for YEARS. When a cheater is caught, he took route mean as hell. 2 years to divorce, 3 years regarding children. I have been insulted beyond hurt.
Now adult children do everything with daddy.
Here’s my problem... I didn’t get ugly, cheat or alienate... and somehow ... he wins.

I'm uncomfortable and hurt and don't want anyone getting close to me so I manipulate them. They're both intrigued and offended at the same time. I've always been alone with my depression and I just want to continue that way. People mock my pain and play the victim at the same time. I make alot of people uncomfotable, there's just no place for me. I just want to forget about being bipolar and what I do to cope. I'm so frustrated. #Bipolar depression #frustration #Sadness #Anxiety #unmatched #Borderline personality disorder #Bipolar anger #always uncomfortable #nothing matters