about a month ago I told my husband I'm moving out due to his inability to step parent, and being separated from my daughter because of it.
and a whole list of other things involving money, drugs and alcohol.
now he wants to help pay Bill's, no acknowledgement of my daughter on Christmas, but since I'm leaving him, now he wants to give her bday $ and cook her prime rib.
I been falling asleep on the couch, I dont want to be close to him anymore. he will sleep on the other couch, he is so loyal in some ways.
last night he went to bed alone, and I suspect he was crying in the dark when I left this morning.
I feel BAD for him, but this cat and mouse cant keep happening. every time I decide to move out and on, he can behave really good, which makes my desire to leave wane.
but I have a goal, to be well and both kids together...... I'm resolved and feeling so detached from him.
so why does seeing him hurting throw me into a sweaty anxious fit? ugh.
#blendedfamilies
#PTSD
#CheckInWithMe