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Feelings of shame for my body

Trigger warning : Self mutalation and weight issues

Does anyone ever feel like they can’t change how they feel about their body?
I feel like I hate my body .
I feel like I can’t change how I feel about it
I feel like it’s ugly and scar covered and stretch mark filled from gaining weight .
I feel like I could just take a pair of scissors and cut off all the fat on my body... on my arms and on my stomach.
I try not to overeat as much but I’m finding when I’m away from work and home to myself with the tv and the idea of snacking so much.
I find the urge when i run out of snacks to not rush to the store to get some chips or something. I don’t eat it all at once but I do enjoy to snack and eat a little bit of them here and there .
I know this probably sounds really messed up but for some reason I just feel like I need to change . I struggle with the idea of exercising and working out to help me lose the weight.

#BodyImageproblems #Bodyshame #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #EatingDisorders

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Stop telling me to love my body! #BodyShaming #BodyImage #bodyissues #BodyImageproblems

“It’s okay to be fat” “just keep eating as long as you’re happy” “it’s okay, i’m fat too”
Are those people really think that’s a nice thing to say?
I used to be a skinny girl when i was a kid, my family said I can’t get fat no matter how much i eat, so they kept giving me food i love, but it all changed since my first period. Getting fat is like breathing an air but you can’t let go. I keep gaining weight since than, and my parents never tells me to go on a diet or take me to a doctor. They thought it’s normal and healthy.
It starts when i was in high school, my body getting bigger. I joined cheerleader, dance club, even students body president, i rarely eat, but i keep gaining weights. My dad vision of a pretty girl is long hair, skinny body and no acne face. I’m the opposite. My hair was short because it’s hot, i don’t have skinny body since my body keep growing, and my face got hit by hormonal acne. So my dad keep telling me “you’re fat” “Take care of your face, it’s unappealing” and many hurtful words that i’m kinda used to it.
In high school i won so many awards, even my teachers are proud of me, but not my dad, because i’m not the pretty girl at school. He kept remind me everyday that i’m not pretty enough, no guys want to be my boyfriend if i look like that, or I should feel ashamed with my body. Believe me it messed me up.
I fought with my friends because I thought and i’m sure, he making fun of me because i’m fat, i cried and scream at him in the mall, it happened couple times. And we lost contact since that day.
This insecurity grew inside me. Because my dad remind me everytime, when we eat, when i wear a clothes, when i wear a shorts, or when we meet our big family. I was never skinny enough or pretty enough. I knew i said i’m used to what he said, but sometimes it hurts, i expect that from someone else, but never my dad.
My height is 159cm and my weight is 85kg, i look fat in every picture, so I edited my picture to look skinny, because i feel comfortable that way, everyone said i’m pretty when I’m skinny in the picture, it makes me happy but hurts at the same time, because my dad still reminding me with his own mouth i need to lose weight to be pretty, i need to stop eating when i only eat once a day.
I met lots of new people that share about #BodyPositive and said, love your body, love yourself, but it’s not as simple as that, my insecurities live within me, don’t push me to believe that my body is okay, my body my choice, because it doesn’t feel like it, that words only hurts me more, my dad already do a good job with that, please stop, it’s nice for you to share to the young ones, but not me, i’m too broken to feel that I’m beautiful, and i hate myself enough for that. All this hormonal weight really blind me.
If you wonder, what did my dad do to make me lose weight? Nothing, once I didn’t eat for a whole day because i feel ugly. I only wear a dress once, because my dad said i look like a whale wearing that #MentalIllness

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I’m so lost. 11 years with an eating disorder #EatingDisorders #BodyImageproblems #BulimiaNervosa #BingeEatingDisorder

Please help me. Binging and purging is so out of hand. How do you all cope with urges to binge or purge? And any helpful body image tips? I’m exhausted and I desperately need some support

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Feelings of Failure.

Recently I have been having intense feels of failure and decreasing self worth. Due to my illnesses I cannot finish anything I really want to. I started an online course on psychology after 2 days I couldn't manage that. I started working out and after yesterday, just one day of worrkout I couldn't continue that too. I have gained 20 kgs- in 4 months due to my medicines and I feel really bad looking myself. Body Image issues are troubling me alot. What should I do?
#weightgain #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #BodyImageproblems

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Does anyone else feel this way #Ihatemybody

So I just got back from the gym and my self loathing is super high. This time it was the gym but this happens pretty much every time I leave the house. As soon as I get out of my car and start to see people I begin to feel like a troll who should just crawl back into my hole and die. Does anyone else feel this way? Have you found any relief from it? Anything helps🌻 #BodyImageproblems #Ihatemybody #needhelp #PTSD #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety

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A "Weighty" Conversation

My Dietician told me not to focus on how much I weighed at all. It served no purpose. Sometimes, it is what it is for those of us with debilitating chronic disease. If this is you, I want to reach out and let you know, your weight is not a reflection of how well you’re taking care of yourself. You’re doing all you can.

In my latest article for The Mighty I share more on this topic.

How do you cope with weight gain or weight loss due to your chronic illness?

https://themighty.com/2019/10/body-positivity-after-weight-gain-from-chronic-illness/

#ChronicIllness #BodyImageproblems

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Attractiveness

I’m new to this … how did or does one overcome body image problems? I hardly ever feel psychical attractive and when I get compliments I look for someone who is attractive in the room. #BodyImageproblems