borderlinedepression

It be like that sometimes
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So my sister happened to call me the other day. At first it was a VC but then we switched to audio. Since I'm well acquainted (and annoyed) with people being 'People', I was perfectly 'Normal' seeming to not have noticed the look on her face when she saw me.

*who goes around the house doing laundry in Chanel anyway^^

It was pretty evident from all the fake accenting*is-that-even-a-word* that she was out with friends and as most of the talk recipient wasn't me, I left her babbling on the bed.

A while later when all was done and silent, I took a deep breath.
I was tired. We all are.
Another day check☑️

That night again
Crickets fought to kill whimpers drowned down by an old owl on the Oak.
And then she was as fine..

As wine...
Btw lets talk about snowdrops next time. I find them exquisite^^

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At times the need to connect is very strong and real tht they seem to be eating on the insides.
Then when some seemingly normal human comes my way, I go into this passive 'I don't care who u are..what u want, just go away" mode. Most of the time it's either I care too much or couldn't give a 💩(why does shits smile?)

Anyway.. Trust issues have bothered and worsened over time. Just when I think "aber ich sehe Licht am Endes des Tunnels" someone would let me down.. And there I go falling face first on the floor regreting every single decision I've ever made. To ruminate almost killing myself due to past trauma to being abused by the same person who fking kept me for taking my life...what's the difference? why did they do it? Why ME of every other living person? Whose fault is it that I can't seem to trust anymore? Whose fault is it that coping is this difficult?

It's true when they say,
"Part of me is a hopeless romantic while the other part is just hopeless."

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Aftr my online session, I scrolled through my ig feed n I ended up watching this reel that had a scream in it.
Some woman screams in the goddamn video!
Can't people just shut the fk up?!

Nw the fks wrong with me? I'm feeling heavy and lost and sad and it's all so fkin shitty n fked up
Godd the hells wrong with me...
Uff I'm such a coward.

Help.
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Pardon me Sir Andy in heaven, but I just don't get the feels *shrugs

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