bpii

I used to struggle a lot with self-harm in my early teen years but after several years of not doing it, the urges are coming back. They’re different, though. Now it’s a severe urge to hit myself in the head as hard as I can over and over, and it leaves bruises. I know it’s not healthy. I think part of me thinks it’s ok because it’s not cutting so it’s not really self-harm, but I know it is and it’s not good. If y’all have advice for releasing tension and getting the relief without doing this, I would love to hear it. #Selfharm #triggerwarning #TW #Bipolar #BipolarDisorder #bp2 #bpii #Anxiety #Advice

My strength comes from memories.
I'm the only one to have heard
her heartbeat from the inside.
It soothed and comforted me,
just like her voice.
I got the best part of my genes from her.
She was my first love, my protector, my confidante.
She tried to help me with my demons;
ldistening, understanding, caring, empathetic.
She never knew what things
were really like, though.
She didn't know the hell
I call life.
I wish I could hold her, feel
her hand comforting me.
I want to tell her everything
that I've been going through the
past 28 years.
No one has taken her place;
no one possibly could.
She was one of my greatest allies.
I didn't know how much I needed her
until she was gone and it was too late.
Because of her,
I am.
Because of mental illness,
I sometimes wish I could be with her.
#lossofmom #MightyPoets #Bipolar #bpii #sadandtired #angry #frustrated #Heartbroken #FindStrength