I haven't held my daughter for almost a month and tomorrow is mothers day. I have asked my sister in law to let me stay with them and I know they are mad at me for hurting Danny there brother. I had a horrible past that caused PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, anxiety, and on top of all that i am high functioning autistic. #BPD #PTSD #Autism #Anxiety
A few days ago I convinced myself I wasn’t sad
Just tired
Like The Little Prince I lied
Over and over
“You’re just tired”
“You’re just tired”
Without knowing that the sadness wouldn’t be fooled by a fool
Like me
#yourenotalone #depression#mentalhealthawareness #tiredoffighting #tiredoffeelingsad #sad #Cantstopcrying
I had a strange event happen in my work that was hard for me but hit me harder than I thought it would. since then, I haven’t been able to stop crying. like, I keep disappearing to the bathroom to sob. I am so overcome with depression and heartbreak and tears and I can’t explain why. I have been begging my Higher Power to make it stop. I don’t know what to do. my spouse is very concerned.
I moved across the country with my sister and her family in Sept with the hope of starting a new chapter, but it has backfired for me and I am struggling terribly with my mental health. I quit my job, gave away and sold a lot of my things before we left- I literally have a few boxes of clothing to my name. I am overwhelmed with paying for my health insurance and right now I don’t have a job. I have no friends or support out here. Now the plan is to move back home since my sister’s job isn’t working out. I don’t want to stay out here all alone when they move back. Isolation is the worst thing for me. It has been extremely difficult for me to find happiness and my anxiety has been very difficult to manage for the past 2 months. I feel very sad and uncomfortably angry at times. #Feelingtrapped, #Cantstopcrying
We have just moved towns and we have been here for 1/2 a day and I hate it! I hate the house! We have gone from a beautiful old home right next to a park that had so much character to a residential area where no matter which way we look we can see into the neighbours back yards or houses! I’m going back home for a few months to finish up at work but don’t want to come back here permanently! #regret #Whattodo #Cantstopcrying
I wish I could break. Not die. Not going to kill myself. My soul is crushed. Hope is fading. Solitude is calling my name louder and louder. And I’m willing to resign to it. And I hate that. I have been let down once again by those I really need right now. When the going gets tough ...right....
I feel sick. I want to throw up. The pressure. The not knowing. The waiting. Not wanting to face inevitable conflict. If I ignore it, it will go away right? NOPE! NOT how that works! Worst advice ever. And I have followed it for a life time. Like it’s in my bones. I need more support than the ones I love can offer me right now. Right now when it matters....
therapy tomorrow. Man I want a drink. But, that is not a good combination: emotionally drinking... #Anxiety #Depression #Cantstopcrying
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