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Hi, my name is WhatisHome44. I'm here because I feel like my life is over due to my chronic illness, my childhood/current trauma, and my deteriorating body. Because of this, everything I’ve spent my life working toward has fallen apart. And I have no way to make it any better. I’m 34. I’m losing weight astronomically fast. I have an illness that is exacerbated by stress, and there are people in my life who go out of their way to cause me stress. I don’t have a family physician. I’ve been bounced around from nurse practitioner to nurse practitioner, and am in a horrible situation at a private clinic. I’m losing all of my savings and these private clinics are cleaning me out. I didn’t have much to begin with. I cannot afford food. My wife works every single day and I work 5 days out of the week from home. I’m a musician/composer/audio engineer, but I’ve been struggling to hold my instruments. I’m losing mobility in my arms and legs. My brain is not functioning correctly, and I haven’t slept longer than 4-5 hours in over a year. I’m so tired. It’s so hard to work and even harder to function. I have no pain control. And I’m eligible for M.A.I.D in my country. I am trying to hold on. But am ready to exit. This was quite long but barely scratched the surface. I apologize for the heavy subject matter.
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