New hair same #Depression & #Pain
I dyed my hair. I like to paint my nails & dye my hair to feel better. Kind of like personal maintenance for my outsides. My #Selfesteem has not been good so trying to do a little bit of #Selfcare does make a difference. Dyed my hair with arctic fox dye, did wrath red & purple rain & I think it turned out good. Been extremely #depressed still dealing with #ChronicPain #ChronicFatigue #BipolarDisorder #Anxiety #PTSD , will be going through a #Divorce with my best friend who I can’t trust after 9 years of marriage. I’ve barely been hanging on honestly but I’m #Stillhere I keep feeling like I want to give up but I am #ContinuingMyStory it’s just been really hard. I keep putting stuff off that I need to get done & barely able to get out of bed some days but I’ve been pushing myself to at least get up & do something with my time. Also my sleep schedule has been completely messed up & I basically keep the sleep schedule of a vampire. I have to exhaust myself to be able to sleep because of the pain. Been using sleep music & that’s been helping but I keep sleeping during the day & staying up all night watching my favorite shows & movies or playing video games. Anything to escape my current reality. Also been having snuggle time with my #Cats #MightyPets they have been the one thing keeping me remotely sane. I really don’t know what I’m going to do, I don’t know where my life is going, everything is up in the air & the world outside this mess of a life is even more terrible. I feel like everything is falling apart but I don’t know how to get myself out of this hole. Just taking it one day at a time because that’s all I can do. #TakeItOneDayAtATime #ProjectSemicolon #SuicideAttemptSurvivors I deserve peace I deserve love I deserve happiness