I miss going to conventions since Covid took over. I’ve cosplayed “Snake” from “Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater” going to conventions kind of made me forget about M.S for a while just pretending to be someone else for a while sort of helped. I hope I can go back soon. Seeing fans react to my costume was an amazing feeling. This took place in 2018.
My very first cosplay was Harley Quinn from Suicide Squad. While my mom was still in the building I didn't have to have her walk by my side. I actually felt independent. I may have helped that I was with a childhood friend but I was interacting with people and approaching them for pictures when I am normally a quite mouse. Since then I now make my own cosplays. (3 years now)
I was devastated when actor Cameron Boyce passed away in his sleep due to a seizure. Disney's Descendants is my all time favorite movie and Carlos deVil is my favorite character. Because like me he was a quite mouse in the corner until he found his passion that helped him come out of his shell.
Cosplay has also helped with my depression and brought me from the brink of suicide. I was in a dark place for a short time. But after that one anime con and a long talk with my mother and doctor I realized I am important. I am loved. And it hurts my heart to think that I thought about leaving my loved ones behind. Even my fur baby who also helped me through difficult times.
I am upright to say that I no longer scratch my chest or pull of the corners of my toenails. It has been 5 years since then.
That's my story.
Cosplay not only helps with my anxiety and depression, but I like to think that it saved my life.
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So I enjoy cosplay. I enjoy bringing a character to life. I enjoy the idea of bringing the happiness of seeing a real life Mario or a real life Captain America. I enjoy making grown adults bring out those memories where they were at home and with their friends playing games.
I personally enjoy cosplaying because it allows me to adapt the person I am cosplaying as. It allows me to show the kind of person who I would want to be, as well as the attributes of the person I want to bring to life.
I used to love everything Star Wars. I read books of lore and I enjoyed playing their games. I immersed myself so deeply that I wanted to be a Jedi. I also thought the clone armor was absolutely the coolest thing ever. I enjoyed the best of these series and I enjoyed the other parts of the series.
If I can make other people happy or I entice people to dress up as somebody they look up to, it makes me feel like I impacted people in a good way.
I have been wanting to go to comicon for a long time. I had the opportunity to last year. However I couldn’t because I was hospitalized. I still want to go and I want to dress up as a clone from Star Wars. It would be so cool.
Unfortunately, I don’t think I’ll be able to go this year.
Either way, I reccomend people to try cosplaying.
#InsideOutChallenge I’ve dealt with personas my entire life. So much so, it’s almost diagnosed as schizophrenia. However, I am in “full” control and in cognitive mind when these personas break through. This is Negan. After my abusive relationship, this persona came barreling in out of nowhere. It was, and is, a shield to protect me from other people. Negan (from The Walking Dead TV Show) is one of the strongest, no bulls**t, confident, cocky, brilliant, and chaotic neutral characters I have ever come across. He has all the strength I only wish I could have. But becoming a female Negan, by cosplaying the part, walking the walk and talking the talk, suddenly I realized: that strength has always been inside of me. I just needed some help in tapping into it.
#InsideOutChallenge I’ve dealt with personas my entire life. So much so, it’s almost diagnosed as schizophrenia. However, I am in “full” control and in cognitive mind when these personas break through. This is Harley, Harley Quinn. She’s fun, bubbly, loud, funny, with a devil-may-care attitude. She loves too much but takes no s**t. She’s sassy, she’s a real woman. Everyone loves her. I find this persona used mostly in public. My voice changes, as well as my stance. The world is lovely and full of joy...until someone comes along to ruin it. Night-night, Puddin. We don’t need that type of negativity here.