Personality Disorders

I've definitely mastered surviving!
Growing up and going through life as a HSP and with two personality disorders plus anxiety and depression.
I needed to fight hard.
Most days were hard.
Most things were hard.
Most relationships were hard.
I became hard.
My heart closed.
Probably also my soul.
To shield me from all the hurt.
And I mastered surviving.
I survived - thank goodness.
Now I am working on healing for the first time in my life.
And I want to get to a point where I live more.
I get to experience it now in short and fleeing moments.
But I'll take that.
I can build on that.
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I have four moods 😁

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So, I didn't even know I did this.
But last year I found just how much I gaslighted myself.
I have been invalidated a lot in my life.
And I had turned the voices of invalidation inwards.
And after being in an emotionally abusive relationship for 12 years with a chronic gaslighter, I also turned that inwards.
It was until I started learning about my personality disorders and how invalidation affects them, that I became aware of my inner dialog of negating myself.
Of putting myself, my feelings, my accomplishments down all the time.
Of not being allowed to be me.
Always feeling wrong and not valid.
But I am working on turning this around.
I fall on my face a lot with the practice.
But as someone once told me on The Mighty; all practice is good practice.
So I try to show myself grace.
And not invalidate my trying.
I hope you all have the best week possible💐
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#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
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