daughtersofnarcissisticmothers

So my mother is bipolar or borderline. Her disorder is untreated. She is also an addict. She goes to a clinic for that.

She was a terrible mother. She treated me terrible, lied all the time, stole from me, and did drugs in front of me (to name a few things).

I moved in with my grandparents when I was 15. My relationship with my mother died.

I'm 20 now. I've been a follower of Jesus since I was 14, and I know that this situation with my mother is holding me back. We met up some this last school year as my attempt to build some semblance of a relationship, but after she blew me off twice, I told her that I wouldn't meet with her anymore.

I'm thinking I'm going to try again. Tonight I had a breakthrough, and I realize that I need to distance myself some and remember her sickness. She is mentally ill. It just is what it is.

I need advice though. What are some boundaries I would have? What do I do when she blows me off or does something inappropriate? Has anyone else been in a similar situation? Please share your story (as much as you feel comfortable).

Thank you for reading this, guys. I look forward to any responses.

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I have 3 adult children. Only my 1st grew up with me. Had Very little/limited contact with the other 2 from 4&6 up. Now because they were raised to believe mental illness isn't real, they have cut me out of their lives. My oldest son is trying to get my other son to talk to me, but he really doesn't want to. This has been an extremely difficult experience & I don't know how to process it. My mother was never there for me. I don't know what to do. 😭😭😭

Depression.
Anxiety
Panic Attacks
Self Harm
Chronic Illnesses
Suicidal Idealation.
All caused by the one person in my life who was supposed to protect me. I feel so broken. And even years after I went no contact, I hear her voice in my head telling me to kill myself. I stopped trying to live a long time ago. Anything I enjoyed she destroyed. I wasnt allowed to like any color that wasnt her favorite color. I wasnt allowed to be a kid. I wasnt allowed to do better than her in any way. I wasnt allowed to have potential.
But you know what the worst part of all is?
The worst part is when people tell me "But shes your MOTHER, you should forgive and let her back in your life."
How about NOT.
She broke me enough. #daughtersofnarcissisticmothers #TraumaSurvivors