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I’ve been on a low(ish) dose for a while... I’m taking anywhere from 75-150mg. It’s been a little inconsistent.
I’ve recently started cutting back more. I’m at 50mg daily.
I feel emotionally numb. When I do feel something, it’s incredibly painful. I become overwhelmed, inconsolable and suicidal. I feel like I’m already dead.
I’ve been thinking it could be due to the meds. I just want to feel alive again.

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